Seems Weird!
Well i guess this whole break up thing hasn't really hit me yet. When my Senior Homecoming came around and i was dateless, it hit me really hard. Im single! What am i suppose to do with that? I havn't been single in two years.
Well to be honest with you...i hated it. I still hate it and will for a long time. I was having an amazing time with all my best friends, dancing like a maniac and then that song came on. Liz and i looked at each other, knowing that it was both of our "songs", so we danced together, sad we were, but atleast we had eachother.
It seems to me that men just seem to want to fuck me over these days. I just don't understand. I had been with him for two years, all he had to do was show up for 4 hours. Thats it, just so i would have someone there that cared about me. But instead i was stuck, looking around at every other happy couple in the entire place. Ya, most of my friends didn't have dates, but i ALWAYS had him. Well atleast it seemed like always. I began to think, i really do feel single. It just had never hit me, i mean, i sit at home on the weekends, so its not like i party. And during the week i babysit and have class, so its not like i meet people there. So pretty much, im in my own little world, only thinking about what i have to get done that day and well him.
Well i have come to the conclusion, that HE shouldn't be in my thoughts any longer. I am not in his, not matter what he says. I know this is going to be hard, i have seen so many of my best friends so through it, but i must do it. For the both of us. He needs to live his college life and be the guy he wants to be. I want the best for him and I both. Im living my life just the way i always did, except no one to talk to at night or spend holidays with.
So just in case you were wondering, it just now hit me...
im alone and single.
Lauren E. Berry
Well to be honest with you...i hated it. I still hate it and will for a long time. I was having an amazing time with all my best friends, dancing like a maniac and then that song came on. Liz and i looked at each other, knowing that it was both of our "songs", so we danced together, sad we were, but atleast we had eachother.
It seems to me that men just seem to want to fuck me over these days. I just don't understand. I had been with him for two years, all he had to do was show up for 4 hours. Thats it, just so i would have someone there that cared about me. But instead i was stuck, looking around at every other happy couple in the entire place. Ya, most of my friends didn't have dates, but i ALWAYS had him. Well atleast it seemed like always. I began to think, i really do feel single. It just had never hit me, i mean, i sit at home on the weekends, so its not like i party. And during the week i babysit and have class, so its not like i meet people there. So pretty much, im in my own little world, only thinking about what i have to get done that day and well him.
Well i have come to the conclusion, that HE shouldn't be in my thoughts any longer. I am not in his, not matter what he says. I know this is going to be hard, i have seen so many of my best friends so through it, but i must do it. For the both of us. He needs to live his college life and be the guy he wants to be. I want the best for him and I both. Im living my life just the way i always did, except no one to talk to at night or spend holidays with.
So just in case you were wondering, it just now hit me...
im alone and single.
Lauren E. Berry