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i am so ready to work. gretchen and i had a good conversation over dinner and it just made me realize how much i just wanna take the opportunities i have right now and the teachers and the classes and just run with them
i want to be able to come away this year, feeling like i have blatantly progressed. like i can actually tell i have gotten better. i mean, that happened last year, but i want more. there are so many fierce people out there that make me just wanna give up because i feel liek i could never be like them so wahts the point. but i should let it be fuel. its hard tho, to turn jealousy into motivation. ughh
musical theater ensemble, i hope, should let me come out of my shell a little bit and allow me to be seen as a marketable, competent, performer. i am a little peeved with ensembles but im not gonna let it get me down. i feel like uarts faculty, and peers for that matter, have not seen the full spectrum of my abilities. but im glad that we are going to start really performing, so that i can begin to stretch myself to my full capacity.
i am not perfect. i never will be. but perfection can still be a goal, cant it? am i setting myself up for a breakdown when i want to be like some of the most amazing dancers in the world? is it just so outrageous that i will just collapse when i realize that will never be me? or is it healthy and something i can acheive?
thoughts that i send out to the abyss that is cyberspace. oye ve.
love you all
teens
i want to be able to come away this year, feeling like i have blatantly progressed. like i can actually tell i have gotten better. i mean, that happened last year, but i want more. there are so many fierce people out there that make me just wanna give up because i feel liek i could never be like them so wahts the point. but i should let it be fuel. its hard tho, to turn jealousy into motivation. ughh
musical theater ensemble, i hope, should let me come out of my shell a little bit and allow me to be seen as a marketable, competent, performer. i am a little peeved with ensembles but im not gonna let it get me down. i feel like uarts faculty, and peers for that matter, have not seen the full spectrum of my abilities. but im glad that we are going to start really performing, so that i can begin to stretch myself to my full capacity.
i am not perfect. i never will be. but perfection can still be a goal, cant it? am i setting myself up for a breakdown when i want to be like some of the most amazing dancers in the world? is it just so outrageous that i will just collapse when i realize that will never be me? or is it healthy and something i can acheive?
thoughts that i send out to the abyss that is cyberspace. oye ve.
love you all
teens