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It's such a gloomy day. :-( I hate gloomy days because then I end up feeling gloomy.
We're down to nine days for Godspell. I have a lot of mixed feelings right now. First off, I know the the show needs a lot more work, but I'm confident that we'll be alright come next week. I also want the cast to hang out and have fun like we used to. I feel like we're people in one of those relationships where you start out and everything is just amazing and fabulous, and then all the emotional baggage starts to weigh on your and even though you still have fun and hang out, nothing is as magnificent as it was before. I guess that's true of everything, but I realize it a lot during shows. People start bitching about aspects of the production, people start getting frustrated staying late at rehearsals, everyone has work and schedules, and everything gets complicated.
And seriously, what the heck am I going to do after this? I mean, a summer show, obviously, but I really think I'll end up going into an emotional funk, kind've like I did post-Pippin. I guess I just need to remember that every Pippin has an Absolutely Murder. lol. I also really miss Joseph. I remember that Zach had just broken up with me during Tech Week for Joseph, so I suddenly had a very free schedule and was always excited to go to rehearsal and see all my friends, and we hung out everynight, and had all kinds of fun. (CHAMP!) I really miss Joseph.
Grar, I'm feeling totally emo about this right now. I really hope next week we all start hanging out more like we used to and having fun. I always find it remarkable how people that you didn't even know or care about two months ago can have such a profound effect on your state of mind and emotional well-being.
I know I'm totally over analyzing, but I had been going through this weird phase for like a year. I was happy, but kind've blah all the time. Suddenly, right after Godspell was casted, I started to get over it, and had sooo much fun with the cast. Now all of a sudden I feel like that's gone, and the weird-ness is back and dragging me down, and I have to fight against it.
God, it sounds like I'm freaking depressed or something. I just wish I could go back to a month ago, please. Or to next week, when I'm determined to have a fabulous hell week.
Sorry for the whiny emo entry. I only have like...one a year, so bear with me.
We're down to nine days for Godspell. I have a lot of mixed feelings right now. First off, I know the the show needs a lot more work, but I'm confident that we'll be alright come next week. I also want the cast to hang out and have fun like we used to. I feel like we're people in one of those relationships where you start out and everything is just amazing and fabulous, and then all the emotional baggage starts to weigh on your and even though you still have fun and hang out, nothing is as magnificent as it was before. I guess that's true of everything, but I realize it a lot during shows. People start bitching about aspects of the production, people start getting frustrated staying late at rehearsals, everyone has work and schedules, and everything gets complicated.
And seriously, what the heck am I going to do after this? I mean, a summer show, obviously, but I really think I'll end up going into an emotional funk, kind've like I did post-Pippin. I guess I just need to remember that every Pippin has an Absolutely Murder. lol. I also really miss Joseph. I remember that Zach had just broken up with me during Tech Week for Joseph, so I suddenly had a very free schedule and was always excited to go to rehearsal and see all my friends, and we hung out everynight, and had all kinds of fun. (CHAMP!) I really miss Joseph.
Grar, I'm feeling totally emo about this right now. I really hope next week we all start hanging out more like we used to and having fun. I always find it remarkable how people that you didn't even know or care about two months ago can have such a profound effect on your state of mind and emotional well-being.
I know I'm totally over analyzing, but I had been going through this weird phase for like a year. I was happy, but kind've blah all the time. Suddenly, right after Godspell was casted, I started to get over it, and had sooo much fun with the cast. Now all of a sudden I feel like that's gone, and the weird-ness is back and dragging me down, and I have to fight against it.
God, it sounds like I'm freaking depressed or something. I just wish I could go back to a month ago, please. Or to next week, when I'm determined to have a fabulous hell week.
Sorry for the whiny emo entry. I only have like...one a year, so bear with me.