Well.
SO..It's 1:50 in the a.m. and i cant sleep. I've been home since Saturday and it's been perfect. I've missed all the people in my life here. As i was closing my eyes prepairing to go to sleep, this wave of sadness totally took control of my being. It took me about 5 minutes to realize what this feeling was....LONLINESS. I feel so incomplete. I went to school and hooked up with a couple of people but i didnt find someone like I had hoped to. After returning home and seeing how happy everyone is in there relationships and such I cant help but feel a twinge of jealousy and longing. I'm just really lonely and I wish that I wasnt. I dont know how one can feel so lonely when surronded by as many wonderful people as I am. I think that i'm just ready for a change. I miss being loved and wanted and I miss having someone to just cuddle with. I dont know when or where i will find this person but i'm ready to. This has been the first time in a long while that i've felt like this and i dont know what brought it about. I havent cried in a long time and it seems like this is soo small. SO Trivial. So why does it bring such heartache? I guess me talking to the person to whom i have grown semi fond of while in Chicago didnt really help. Haha...i'm just rambling and needed to get some feelings out. Other than tonight my Summer Vacation so far has been fantastic.