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i dont know how i feel
happy? sad? confused? numb?
i've never had a weekend filled with such mixed emotions.
i made fraser singers on friday, which totally spiced up my life.
and i made a choice on saturday that left me single.
I dont know if it was the right choice, but I made it anyways.
I dont even know if i'll ever figure out if what i did was the right thing.
i honestly don't know what to do.
i brough that upon myself, and all i want to do is bury myself in self pitty.
i think its just a natural habit that everyone has when something like that happens..
but this time I can't, because I was the cause, i made the choice..I was the one to end it.
So I broke a heart..
but maybe i broke my own.
I can't figure it out.
Things never turn out for me.
I'll make the best of friends..then lose them.
Its like a cycle..and it never stops.
When i grow up, and i think back to highschool
I have no ideal what i'm going to remember..
and i don't even know the highlights that will stick in my head.
I'm afraid im missing out life, but how do i know?
how am i supposed to tell?
My cell phone used to contain 3943294932 numbers of people
that i could call crying, but that number has dropped.
I've lost touch with manys..most.
I've sat around all weekend, thinking.
Trying to come up for a reason, an excuse, anything..
to explain all this, but i can't.
I mean is there even supposed to be a reason?
I'm talking in circles, and thinking in circles..
I'm just afraid that my life is going in circles too.
happy? sad? confused? numb?
i've never had a weekend filled with such mixed emotions.
i made fraser singers on friday, which totally spiced up my life.
and i made a choice on saturday that left me single.
I dont know if it was the right choice, but I made it anyways.
I dont even know if i'll ever figure out if what i did was the right thing.
i honestly don't know what to do.
i brough that upon myself, and all i want to do is bury myself in self pitty.
i think its just a natural habit that everyone has when something like that happens..
but this time I can't, because I was the cause, i made the choice..I was the one to end it.
So I broke a heart..
but maybe i broke my own.
I can't figure it out.
Things never turn out for me.
I'll make the best of friends..then lose them.
Its like a cycle..and it never stops.
When i grow up, and i think back to highschool
I have no ideal what i'm going to remember..
and i don't even know the highlights that will stick in my head.
I'm afraid im missing out life, but how do i know?
how am i supposed to tell?
My cell phone used to contain 3943294932 numbers of people
that i could call crying, but that number has dropped.
I've lost touch with manys..most.
I've sat around all weekend, thinking.
Trying to come up for a reason, an excuse, anything..
to explain all this, but i can't.
I mean is there even supposed to be a reason?
I'm talking in circles, and thinking in circles..
I'm just afraid that my life is going in circles too.