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I'm pissed.
I miss my car. Majorly.
I hate ACT's. They effing suck... I got the same score that I did on the practice. My English went up a point, my math went down a point. Ugh. Effing pissed.
And you know, it doesn't really matter. At all. With most of the schools I'm looking at, my score is good enough to get in, or ACT scores don't really matter at all. I mean, most music schools don't give a flying hoot about grades/ACTs. So why am I all pissed that I got a 28, which isn't even bad? Because I should effing do better. Because I should have worked harder. Because I should have concentrated more. Because I should have been prepared for the math section because that's what always kills me.
I should be smarter than this. I should be so much smarter than this.
I went online and I found a list of schools and average ACT scores... with my score, I can't get into 30 of them. And that's not even counting the ones who wrote N/A for score. Like all the really super hard schools didn't even list ACT scores. 30+ schools. That's a fucking lot.
I should know more than this. I should study harder. I should bring up my fucking physics grade so that I fucking pass the fucking class. Why aren't I more driven? Why aren't I more motivated in school? Why do I not care until it matters and it's too late to care? Like now? Why does this bother me so much?
Why aren't I smarter? Why can't I be one of those people like Dan McFadden or Dan Heinzel or Tori Depsey or Becky or somebody who is smart? And driven? Why can't I fucking do fucking geometry? My algebra score was fine... 15/18... better than 90% of the people who took the test... but my geometry/trig junk was awful. 10 and 12 respectively. Out of 18, not 36.
I should know better. I should do so much more than I'm doing. I should be able to juggle school and homework and family and music and my own effed up issues. Why can't I? Why aren't I effing better than this?
Go ahead and effing shoot me now.
28 my ass.
31 in Reading.
30 in English
27 in Science
Fucking 24 in Math.
I want to die.
Or at least hurt somebody. I don't care who. ugh.
I miss my car. Majorly.
I hate ACT's. They effing suck... I got the same score that I did on the practice. My English went up a point, my math went down a point. Ugh. Effing pissed.
And you know, it doesn't really matter. At all. With most of the schools I'm looking at, my score is good enough to get in, or ACT scores don't really matter at all. I mean, most music schools don't give a flying hoot about grades/ACTs. So why am I all pissed that I got a 28, which isn't even bad? Because I should effing do better. Because I should have worked harder. Because I should have concentrated more. Because I should have been prepared for the math section because that's what always kills me.
I should be smarter than this. I should be so much smarter than this.
I went online and I found a list of schools and average ACT scores... with my score, I can't get into 30 of them. And that's not even counting the ones who wrote N/A for score. Like all the really super hard schools didn't even list ACT scores. 30+ schools. That's a fucking lot.
I should know more than this. I should study harder. I should bring up my fucking physics grade so that I fucking pass the fucking class. Why aren't I more driven? Why aren't I more motivated in school? Why do I not care until it matters and it's too late to care? Like now? Why does this bother me so much?
Why aren't I smarter? Why can't I be one of those people like Dan McFadden or Dan Heinzel or Tori Depsey or Becky or somebody who is smart? And driven? Why can't I fucking do fucking geometry? My algebra score was fine... 15/18... better than 90% of the people who took the test... but my geometry/trig junk was awful. 10 and 12 respectively. Out of 18, not 36.
I should know better. I should do so much more than I'm doing. I should be able to juggle school and homework and family and music and my own effed up issues. Why can't I? Why aren't I effing better than this?
Go ahead and effing shoot me now.
28 my ass.
31 in Reading.
30 in English
27 in Science
Fucking 24 in Math.
I want to die.
Or at least hurt somebody. I don't care who. ugh.