Months go on..

[broadwaybaby221]

I don't really know what is wrong with me.

I hate you and the way you treated me but I still care for you so much. and I can't let go.

I hate what you are doing to your life and I am so scared for you, but you don't care and have thrown everyone who doesn't fit your mold aside and that pisses me off, but I'm still here, waiting for that phone call when you want help.

I hate almost everything about you really. you have proved your true colors and I don't like that person, but I can't say good-bye.

You are so incredibly annoying and I'm kind of embarrassed to be seen with you, but I can't seem to say good-bye.

I desperately need to start over, but I am stuck in Columbus until I finish my BA. I don't know if maybe I just am meant to be alone (not that I am really alone, there are people around that I can talk to but no one really like me that lives close enough for me to talk to)

I don't understand what path God has me on. I don't get it. What lesson am I supposed to learn by loosing everything and gaining nothing?

I dunno I just don't understand and I'm getting really frickin' frustrated.