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something strange is happening. i can't describe it..but i know i don't like it.
being home scares me...that sounds like the complete opposite of what i was saying 3 months ago. i don't know how all of this is going to work out. i keep trying to reassure myself that it's all for the best, but i'm not very convincing.
i just want to drop everything and leave. i just need to leave for awhile. i don't know what i need to do or where i need to go...i just feel too still. not like a peaceful kind of still, but that eerie still right before a big storm hits. i'm afraid that this strange and sullen peace is suddenly going to be shattered and everything will fall apart.
i need time to stop.....i need time to sit back and figure out what the hell is happening to me and how i can fix it.
being home scares me...that sounds like the complete opposite of what i was saying 3 months ago. i don't know how all of this is going to work out. i keep trying to reassure myself that it's all for the best, but i'm not very convincing.
i just want to drop everything and leave. i just need to leave for awhile. i don't know what i need to do or where i need to go...i just feel too still. not like a peaceful kind of still, but that eerie still right before a big storm hits. i'm afraid that this strange and sullen peace is suddenly going to be shattered and everything will fall apart.
i need time to stop.....i need time to sit back and figure out what the hell is happening to me and how i can fix it.