It just won't seem to go away...
Hey,
Devon and Colby left for Michigan yesterday. God.
I think this quote says it best:
"These big voids of sadness cannot always be filled with small peices of happiness."
I really can't believe they're gone. I'm glad i got to see them before they left, but that dosent change the fact that it still hurts. God. I wish i could have done something to change the fact that they had to leave, but i don't think i could have.
I wish i could have known beforehand. or at least more than....what..14 hours before they were gonna leave? There could have been a party. I could have brought chips. or cookies.
I feel stupid because it's made me this sad. Oh well. I guess I can't possibly do anything ELSE stupid for a while. I think I've hit my quota for the next...three years or so.
When Tiffany told me, i just started crying. I couldn't help it. Yet again, feeling stupid. Oh well. At least no one laughed at me. I think.
I hope they keep in touch. That was the first thing i thought of when i heard they were leaving. I was like "oh shit, what if they just leave and we dont hear from them again."
This feels a LOT like when Beth left. I felt like shit for a long time, resisted crying until i was in the car, and then when i got in the car i just bawled, kept worrying that i wouldnt ever see her again (silly, i fucking know it) and cried for a long time afterwards. Im still sad to this day that she moved to kentucky. I dont want to deal with that again. It sucks so bad.
I don't necessarily feel bad for me though. I feel bad for, like, their bands, and what they're going to have to do. I just hope everyone can work through it.
at least they're comming back down for spring break. And i dont care how much of a fight he puts up, Devon, you're comming to prom. We'll find you a date. Possibly one of those girls from that exstensive list i gave you.
I love you guys and will miss you until you come back.
"How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot! / The world forgetting, by the world forgot / Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! / Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd. "
*`sara
Devon and Colby left for Michigan yesterday. God.
I think this quote says it best:
"These big voids of sadness cannot always be filled with small peices of happiness."
I really can't believe they're gone. I'm glad i got to see them before they left, but that dosent change the fact that it still hurts. God. I wish i could have done something to change the fact that they had to leave, but i don't think i could have.
I wish i could have known beforehand. or at least more than....what..14 hours before they were gonna leave? There could have been a party. I could have brought chips. or cookies.
I feel stupid because it's made me this sad. Oh well. I guess I can't possibly do anything ELSE stupid for a while. I think I've hit my quota for the next...three years or so.
When Tiffany told me, i just started crying. I couldn't help it. Yet again, feeling stupid. Oh well. At least no one laughed at me. I think.
I hope they keep in touch. That was the first thing i thought of when i heard they were leaving. I was like "oh shit, what if they just leave and we dont hear from them again."
This feels a LOT like when Beth left. I felt like shit for a long time, resisted crying until i was in the car, and then when i got in the car i just bawled, kept worrying that i wouldnt ever see her again (silly, i fucking know it) and cried for a long time afterwards. Im still sad to this day that she moved to kentucky. I dont want to deal with that again. It sucks so bad.
I don't necessarily feel bad for me though. I feel bad for, like, their bands, and what they're going to have to do. I just hope everyone can work through it.
at least they're comming back down for spring break. And i dont care how much of a fight he puts up, Devon, you're comming to prom. We'll find you a date. Possibly one of those girls from that exstensive list i gave you.
I love you guys and will miss you until you come back.
"How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot! / The world forgetting, by the world forgot / Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! / Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd. "
*`sara