Such a sad time
I absolutely love the fall, but it brings back sooo many memories! Like, not just from last year, but mainly the year before. I think of the fall fest. during school when I made a Wicked pumpkin, Josh won the karaoke contest and I offically met Lesley and Tom. Who would have known that my life would change forever after that fall?
I miss Josh with all of my heart. The memories of singing Rent( especially Christmas Bells), and Avenue Q, then being introduced to The Last Five Years, which I will be directing early next year. I miss having that friend that I could tell anything to, and he was a guy, which makes it cooler! We skipped school one day so that we could find Avenue Q and when we did, we went to a CVS, bought a disposable camara and took pics.
How did I get here? How the hell? I feel like everything is missing and I don't have anyone to share the good times with. Lesley's gone. She's in SC and couldn't hate me more. Nick is gone- same there. Josh is still here, but he hates me too. I hate that I have such an amazing past with these people, but they just throw it all away without a thought. I thought that love was worth forgiving for? I guess I was wrong!
It feels good to let this all out. Looks like I will be doing a lot more of this. It's nice to write and not have all the hype of Myspace- though back in the day LJ had it's own drama. lol That will be saved for another entry!
I miss Josh with all of my heart. The memories of singing Rent( especially Christmas Bells), and Avenue Q, then being introduced to The Last Five Years, which I will be directing early next year. I miss having that friend that I could tell anything to, and he was a guy, which makes it cooler! We skipped school one day so that we could find Avenue Q and when we did, we went to a CVS, bought a disposable camara and took pics.
How did I get here? How the hell? I feel like everything is missing and I don't have anyone to share the good times with. Lesley's gone. She's in SC and couldn't hate me more. Nick is gone- same there. Josh is still here, but he hates me too. I hate that I have such an amazing past with these people, but they just throw it all away without a thought. I thought that love was worth forgiving for? I guess I was wrong!
It feels good to let this all out. Looks like I will be doing a lot more of this. It's nice to write and not have all the hype of Myspace- though back in the day LJ had it's own drama. lol That will be saved for another entry!