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it hurts like hell to hurt someone who you care about so deeply. and it hurts to find out how much they actually care about you. it hurts not to be able to say the one thing that could make it all better. i'm so fucked up. and i know that i am. jason is perfect. he's perfect for me. but i dont want to be with him. hell, i want to be with him, but i cant. and i dont know why.
it's hard not to know the exact thing to say, and its hard not to know if you should pick up your keys and drive right over to his house. its hard to say "no" to your best friend. its hard to want to go sit on his porch swing and eat popcorn and have to wonder if you'll ever get to do that again. its hard to want to be yelled at and to want to cry. its hard to cry because i know how much pain he is in. i feel selfish.
it feels good to know that i can express myself and make my point clear. it feels good to know that i'll be able to start figuring out how to become less fucked up now. it feels good to let someone out of a relationship that isnt healthy.
everything is off, but hopefully, soon, they'll be back on.
stones taught me to fly
love taught me to lie
come on, courage, teach me to be shy
its not hard to fall when you float like a
cannonball
it's hard not to know the exact thing to say, and its hard not to know if you should pick up your keys and drive right over to his house. its hard to say "no" to your best friend. its hard to want to go sit on his porch swing and eat popcorn and have to wonder if you'll ever get to do that again. its hard to want to be yelled at and to want to cry. its hard to cry because i know how much pain he is in. i feel selfish.
it feels good to know that i can express myself and make my point clear. it feels good to know that i'll be able to start figuring out how to become less fucked up now. it feels good to let someone out of a relationship that isnt healthy.
everything is off, but hopefully, soon, they'll be back on.
stones taught me to fly
love taught me to lie
come on, courage, teach me to be shy
its not hard to fall when you float like a
cannonball