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i hate lying to jason, because, for the last six months, he is the one person that i've never lied to. and lying is exactly what i'm doing. i'm leading him on. and i know it. i only wish he did. he knew that i left his house early because i wanted to, not because my mom wanted me home. he knew it, and he called me on it. but i lied again. it was easy. but i dont want to anymore. but i cant tell him. i just cant. and i wont.

damn it.

fuck this life. seriously.