Going Nowhere
Tonight R and I had plans to take her cousin Nikki to see a movie. We decided to see Stardust. On the way to R’s house, I was driving down Adams as usual, and turned onto Lincoln. Donna Summer’s “I’m coming out” came on the radio and I decided to show my pride and blast it and rock out. Suddenly, behind me, I see headlights! I was getting pulled over! It was the middle of the afternoon and I was getting pulled over! The cop was a real bitch! I guess I was doing 40 in a 25! He gave me a ticket for 5 over. I couldn’t believe I got pulled over in the middle of the afternoon! I got to R’s and felt a bit down. After R talked to her Kansas boy on WOW, we were finally ready to go. We got uptown and invited Form and Studli Form to join us. They said they would, but ended up seeing a movie in the theatre next to us. Stardust was a 10 out of 10. I thought it was very well done, and a perfect story! After the movie, R and I went to the Lounge to wait for Form and Studli to get out of their movie. When we arrived, I saw someone that I had not seen since last summer. Jessi Hester. We had been great high school friends, and since then, she had become very successful in the advertising world. I didn’t know if I should go up to her at first, but finally I did. She was overly happy to see me. R said she was leaving, and I told her I would walk back to the house. She left with Nikki and I continued my conversation with Jessi. I found out she was moving to NYC tomorrow to pursue modeling. She was only 19, and had gone from MI, right to Chicago, and now to NYC. She was more successful then I had been thus far. When she asked what I was doing, I had nothing. What did I have to show for being out of HS 3 years?! No graduation, no degree, nothing. I felt so small sitting there next to her in that chair. Right when I was about to burst, In walked Tall Form to my rescue. He talked with Jessi and I and then headed back to the house. I told him I would be along shortly.
After talking with Jessi a little longer, we both got up and went out separate ways. I walked back to the house, more depressed then ever. Right out of HS, she had had it all. Good school, good carrier, something to really show for her efforts. I had nothing. One year at a university, and then 2 at a community college! Working at K Mart making jack shit? I couldn’t take it anymore. I didn’t have a good path I was going down, and further more I did not have a good relationship to fall back on. At that point I decided, I was done with Michigan. I had lived my life here 21 years, and now it was time to move on and take risks and accomplish something. I was done. I was 3 three years out of HS, and I needed something to show for it. I got back to the house where Form and Studli were at each others throats again. Form went as far as to throw the computer outside and in the trash. This upset Studli greatly. R and I tried to talk to him about their issues, and I saw things from both sides.. R went inside and I stayed outside and got into another talk with Studli about culture of the 90’s. Finally Form came out. It was clear they needed to talk, and there I was. I quickly had James call me to tell me something bad happened, and I beelined. I stopped by the Holiday Inn Express, like I promised Ted I would. I told him of my situation and he tried his best to calm me down. I didn’t get home until 4 am. What a night!
After talking with Jessi a little longer, we both got up and went out separate ways. I walked back to the house, more depressed then ever. Right out of HS, she had had it all. Good school, good carrier, something to really show for her efforts. I had nothing. One year at a university, and then 2 at a community college! Working at K Mart making jack shit? I couldn’t take it anymore. I didn’t have a good path I was going down, and further more I did not have a good relationship to fall back on. At that point I decided, I was done with Michigan. I had lived my life here 21 years, and now it was time to move on and take risks and accomplish something. I was done. I was 3 three years out of HS, and I needed something to show for it. I got back to the house where Form and Studli were at each others throats again. Form went as far as to throw the computer outside and in the trash. This upset Studli greatly. R and I tried to talk to him about their issues, and I saw things from both sides.. R went inside and I stayed outside and got into another talk with Studli about culture of the 90’s. Finally Form came out. It was clear they needed to talk, and there I was. I quickly had James call me to tell me something bad happened, and I beelined. I stopped by the Holiday Inn Express, like I promised Ted I would. I told him of my situation and he tried his best to calm me down. I didn’t get home until 4 am. What a night!