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I would have to say this weekend was pretty good. I didnt really get to talk to my parents about anything that has been on my mind lately since all they were focused on was asking about Amanda and how i was doing. I think i am doing better but who knows what will happen over the next couple days, weeks, months. I think we are going to stay friends but I dont know since we have only talked like once in the past 3 weeks. And that was only about 5 texts back and forth. Sometimes i hate texting....
I guess I need to find another time to talk to them about stuff. I will just need to do my best from now on to stop overreacting and letting stuff bother me so much and eat away at my insides. I felt like screaming a couple times this weekend. I know my parents mean well but also i know why i moved out of my house when i was 19. I could never imagine living there all the time again. I am ready to begin another chapter in my life and hopefully come to a decisive conclusion about what i want to do with my life or just make a decision about something. Follow through on these ideas in my head and try something new and not just think about it.
Maybe another job to help occupy the time I now have? And keep my mind focused on something else rather than facing my problems. It is easier to avoid them at the moment than do that. I know its not the right thing to do for me to help move on, but maybe i am not ready to move on? I dont think i am at all. I cant just toss it aside like the trash like some people can. I am too stubborn and hopeful at the same time, which is not the healthiest combo for the mind.
I guess I need to find another time to talk to them about stuff. I will just need to do my best from now on to stop overreacting and letting stuff bother me so much and eat away at my insides. I felt like screaming a couple times this weekend. I know my parents mean well but also i know why i moved out of my house when i was 19. I could never imagine living there all the time again. I am ready to begin another chapter in my life and hopefully come to a decisive conclusion about what i want to do with my life or just make a decision about something. Follow through on these ideas in my head and try something new and not just think about it.
Maybe another job to help occupy the time I now have? And keep my mind focused on something else rather than facing my problems. It is easier to avoid them at the moment than do that. I know its not the right thing to do for me to help move on, but maybe i am not ready to move on? I dont think i am at all. I cant just toss it aside like the trash like some people can. I am too stubborn and hopeful at the same time, which is not the healthiest combo for the mind.