The Angel Who I Thought Could Never Fly Away

[brntglitterrr]

today marks the 2nd anniversary of micah's death. we always thought we would be together forever.. we made so many silly plans for our future together. he even gave me a promise ring that i still wear today. there was nothing i was more sure of than my future with micah.. after being together for 5 years, it was hard to imagine anything could break us. but when you're that young, you're completely naive and that's what we were. micah was the one person i could always count on to be on my side, no matter what. kids like him, minorities living only with one parent on a low income, tend to grow up troubled. but micah, being the strong-willed kid he was, dared to break the stereotype and become sucessful in everything he did.. except for picking me. he was a great athlete, a straight-A student and class president..he had a really promising future as an architect. he was well liked by every clique even though he hung out with the group that was least liked by everyone else. he was as close to perfection as they come.."the all american kid", only he was puerto rican. he had overcome many obstacles life had thrown at him, anemia, leukemia and dozens of surgeries, but those things only made him stronger. in the last few days of his life, i felt like i needed to be with him more than usual. i know it sounds hard to believe but when something tragic is about to happen in my life, i feel something different. i almost sense something is about to happen. before my uncle was killed, i felt a similar feeling of dread that i felt before micah died. 2 years have passed and it still really hasn't really hit me. when i take the train into penn station, sometimes i go and sit at our spot waiting for him to come get me. after a while, i realize he's not coming. even though he is gone, i know he is still with me. he will always live in my heart and it won't be long til i'm with him again forever. until then, i just have to live like he would have wanted me to.

it's really scary how one incident can change your life forever. it's even more scary to think about how much your life can really change.

*te amo mi amor*