Year in Review
It's that time of year again...
Before I start, let me say that a lot of you are not going to agree with the choices I've made. Surprise, surprise. But you know what? College wasn't right for me. Ok. That's not true. Let me rephrase that. What wasn't right for me was jumping straight into FSU as a junior, having to take junior classes without ( Read more... )
Before I start, let me say that a lot of you are not going to agree with the choices I've made. Surprise, surprise. But you know what? College wasn't right for me. Ok. That's not true. Let me rephrase that. What wasn't right for me was jumping straight into FSU as a junior, having to take junior classes without ( Read more... )
i hope everything is going good for you. whats weird was i was clean for quite some time and then i moved back in with my parents and i started using.... ironic, now that all this mess has occured, i found out all my parents drug habits.... and they are a double edged sword. i am back at their house.... because i needed a place... i had a place in the tampa bay area but i came back to brevard when my dad was in the hospital -- everyone thought he was dying, but he is okay now. the doctors said he had two tumours so they removed most of one his lungs.... then i got arrested as he was recovering. and i wasnt staying anywhere at that point in time -- kinda living out my car, but i left it parked at my job nearly 24/7 and always went skateboarding to somebody's house where there could be pot smoking and drinking, at that point i didnt even care about cocaine and i actually hadn't done it in a long time, i just kept it with me.... it was comforting to know it was there....
its a crutch i don t even wanna lean on these days.... in fact, as soon as i got on probation i knew i shouldnt smoke pot but i was so depressed and wanted to get some skeet and couldn't so i did things the old ways and hustled myself back into the marijuana scene... and always i would make money off regs and go search for that dank ass kyrppie.... mostly to no avail... i know i can get it in satilite beach but that is where i got busted so im never going back there. thats for sure.
it was sooo stupid the way i got busted...if i had just threw my backpack on the floor the bong would have been concealed and i would have taken my speeding ticket and been fine.
now i have no care. i have a felony conviction. its impossible for me to find work. the only thing i can think of is daily work daily pay and parents are assholes and say i cant go there because the atmosphere. just like i couldnt go play pool with a bunch of lesbians....
*grumbles*
im just so angsty and frustrated with everything. i want to throw my hands in the air and start screaming sometimes.... but that won't solve anything. its not gonna change the fact i still gotta pay off my credit card and my court fees and try to get my own place. i think my parentals are still having issues with letting me be grown up. i think they view me as irresposible and possibly like a child.
what is ironic is that the whole time i was living on my own, i never had to pay one bill late. and i lived on the streets jsut so i could be close to them, then i within the month i was back in brevard i had a job and never had any late bills...
now i cant find employment. its frustrating. i believe its the felony looming over my head....
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When did you live in Tampa?? I lived in St Pete for a while about a year ago. But now I’m back in Tallahassee.
Let’s see…I’ll give you my quick update and it will probably make you feel, at least not as alone. After you left FSU, I was still dating Jacob I think. Well we broke up or whatever and I got placed on academic probation. The next semester I didn’t even freaking go to class at all, and I was drinking majorly, and that’s when I started the cocaine too. I met David (my son’s father) doing coke, actually. I had caught a pot charge in our dorm, and then a week later a coke charge. So I was in Drug court but I was still smoking and stuff. And I failed out of FSU. So I moved down to St Pete with David and we broke up like a month later because I got really drunk and beat him up so I got ANOTHER charge for domestic battery. I found out I was pregnant when I was in jail. Then I got out and ended up living in a homeless shelter for like a month, until I got arrested to go back to Tallahassee because I had a FTA for Drug Court. So I went up there, spent two and a half months in jail waiting for rehab. Went to rehab, had my kid, got back with David, moved BACK to St. Pete. Well, things weren’t working out so I took the baby and left. Ended up leaving my son with my mom and moved back to Tally, was still in Drug Court but messing up all the time. I got a shoplifting charge and spent another month in jail. Got kicked out of drug court and put on drug offender probation. Went BACK to rehab (same one). And I just got out like 2 weeks ago. And I’m still clean so far. And I’m living with my son and my son’s father, we just got a nice apartment. And so far it’s going great.
Whew!
Anyway…as far as the job thing goes, you aren’t convicted yet right?? So it won’t even show up on your record, I wouldn’t even tell them. I told my boss though and I work at Florida Prepaid College Board. It’s a nice job. My suggestion would be to go through a temp service because usually once people see you work they are more likely to overlook other things.
I’m glad that your dad is okay. I know he is like the better one of the two, right?
Anyway so what you violated your probation then??? Up here it’s an automatica 30 days in jail. I haven’t done that yet. Thank god I’ve done MORE than enough jail time!!!
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OMG!!!! THE REALLY GOOD ENWS FOR THE DAY! I got a job -- at the mcdonalds i was working at right before i got arrested. i went up there today and im on the schedule for tonight. 5pm-1am... but they might be putting me on overnights. its so awesome. i feel so much more relieved. i guess with the sobriety came anxiety because it was like i gotta do something for myself.... i found it very easy to get drugs by hustling drugs.... and thats no life right there.... thats half the reason why i was out the night i did get busted, thank god i was sold out of my stock and only had my personal shit.... well, i must admit i am happy to hear that you are clean....i can even say i am happy i am clean. the only thing i have been doing is smoking my newports.... tell you what i love menthol.
OH! so for a complete change of subjects i started listening to rap music.... i love it.... i mean i still rock out
oh, i dont even know if you know i have a mohawk ^.^ shit is awesome and i didnt get turned away from my job because of it either. i gotta love mcdonalds.... i was working taco bell for the longest time -- now that shit sucked. but mcdonalds isn't bad at all...
im not even nervous about court on monday....
i think i spent a lil over thirty days in jail waiting for court, but got bonded out so thats always fun.
these days i dont know about my parents....but growing up my dad was always way nice and hate to say it but my mom is just a resentful bitch most of the time.
anywayz.
yeah -- jail is a shitty place. i think total i have only done a lil under two months in jail -- so luckily i havent had much jail timebut i dont wanna go back -- i think the judge will see that i am working and in rehab and going to na and will let me stay on probation -- hopefully i wont get my probation extended... that would be shitty....
so how old is your son? and whats his name? i bet he is adorable ^.^ if you have any pictures floating around i would to see them. my friends josh and monica just had a baby -- tha tlil tyke is cute and gave me a high five the other night ^.^
and my cousin steve just had his second child, his first is a girl, and she is like 2 now and he just had a son, his name is owen.... he is rlly tiny and allergic to milk and formula -- just like me! lol
oh, i lived in tampa last summer and fall... shit was banging!
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christianis a year u can find him on my myspace he's all over the place
myspace.com/mad04h
yeah he is a year old. hes great.
i saw ur mohawk on ur probation pic.
which mcdonalds??????
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Oh. My. Gosh.
I AM TOTALLY ADDING YOU TO MY MYSPACE AND PUTTING YOU IN MY TOP FRIENDS WHEN YOU ADD ME BACK
<3
im off to check out myspace now.
hehehehehehehe.
OH THE mcdonalds on babcock and palm bay road. by the kmart....
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its ironic...
i thought i would NEVER get caught.
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