End of the (school) year...so much drama
Wow. Looking back at my journal entries, I find one entry particularly interesting. I wrote about how I wanted Angelo to get fucked over, because of the whole me and Julia thing. Well, my opinion has definitely changed since then. I got to know him so much better, and he was so nice and Julia and him were so close...
...But. I was right. And now it sucks. Angelo fucked himself over. Maybe he's a nympho, I don't know. But now my Julia is hurt and confused, and I don't know what to tell her. I think she's gonna forgive him again though. And, I completely understand that she still likes him, but sometimes you have to let go of something because it is best. All I can do is be a good friend, though. I hope everything works out.
Jacob and I smoked last night. First we smoked with Ali, and wow she is hilarious high. ((We used my new pipe yay!)) She ate soooo much. Then we went and smoked in my car. Oooh and I kicked his ass. He's scared of me sometimes and it's funny because I mean, I'm what? 5'2"? 105 lbs?? Really, darling, you ought to be a little more manly...
hehe.
Oh wow. And get how bad this is---I looked at Jacob's wrist and he has three rubber bands...they are like so-
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but closer together. Anyway, so, maybe I was hungry, or maybe I really do have an obsession- but I swear to god it was the essence of a hot dog. Like, the bun and the meat. It was sooooo stupid that I didn't even want to tell him...but he agreed so oh well.
Anyway, yeah. I don't know why, but everything gets really sensitive when you're...um...under the influence. Like, we were "wrestling" and it hurt more. But at the same time, I didn't care. Weird. And we did this shotgun thing, and under normal circumstances it's not like hot or anything, just something normal, but last night it was pretty hot. Like, hmmm, for some reason, I get somewhat...aroused...when I get stoned and do that with him. Maybe it's just cuz of him.
Which sucks. Because, ever since we broke up, even though we both know we have sexual attraction, he seems afraid to touch me in any way, sexual or not. I think maybe he's afraid it will lead to stuff? Who knows? But, like, when I sleep in the same bed, it's not even the same anymore. I don't expect it to be like it was when we were dating, but damn you don't have to turn yourself completely away from me and stay like on the opposite end and be scared to touch me. Sheesh. I got more action sleeping next to Danny for heaven's sake. hah.
Oh well. I have to go study for finals.
I changed the look on my journal. Tell me what you think!
...But. I was right. And now it sucks. Angelo fucked himself over. Maybe he's a nympho, I don't know. But now my Julia is hurt and confused, and I don't know what to tell her. I think she's gonna forgive him again though. And, I completely understand that she still likes him, but sometimes you have to let go of something because it is best. All I can do is be a good friend, though. I hope everything works out.
Jacob and I smoked last night. First we smoked with Ali, and wow she is hilarious high. ((We used my new pipe yay!)) She ate soooo much. Then we went and smoked in my car. Oooh and I kicked his ass. He's scared of me sometimes and it's funny because I mean, I'm what? 5'2"? 105 lbs?? Really, darling, you ought to be a little more manly...
hehe.
Oh wow. And get how bad this is---I looked at Jacob's wrist and he has three rubber bands...they are like so-
_______
--------
_______
but closer together. Anyway, so, maybe I was hungry, or maybe I really do have an obsession- but I swear to god it was the essence of a hot dog. Like, the bun and the meat. It was sooooo stupid that I didn't even want to tell him...but he agreed so oh well.
Anyway, yeah. I don't know why, but everything gets really sensitive when you're...um...under the influence. Like, we were "wrestling" and it hurt more. But at the same time, I didn't care. Weird. And we did this shotgun thing, and under normal circumstances it's not like hot or anything, just something normal, but last night it was pretty hot. Like, hmmm, for some reason, I get somewhat...aroused...when I get stoned and do that with him. Maybe it's just cuz of him.
Which sucks. Because, ever since we broke up, even though we both know we have sexual attraction, he seems afraid to touch me in any way, sexual or not. I think maybe he's afraid it will lead to stuff? Who knows? But, like, when I sleep in the same bed, it's not even the same anymore. I don't expect it to be like it was when we were dating, but damn you don't have to turn yourself completely away from me and stay like on the opposite end and be scared to touch me. Sheesh. I got more action sleeping next to Danny for heaven's sake. hah.
Oh well. I have to go study for finals.
I changed the look on my journal. Tell me what you think!