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I feel. hurt. I feel like im in a fucking jar for you to look at and take out when you want some attention. I wish that one time something would happen so i could actually enjoy it. I want that die hard love, that love that keeps you up at night. Thinking about the person. Wanting to see that person smile all the time. Fighting but knowing that when you wake up toomorrow it wont matter at all. But all I get is the person who loves someone esle and im the replacement until they find some other person or the same person to love. Im the inbetween person. Im the girl thats told shes very attactive but thats as far as it goes. Theres always someone esle to love out there and want to be with. Tonight I layed there while you told me what she did to you and how she broke your heart and you never want to feel love again becuase your scared of it. But you would be jealous if i went out with different guys? I want to know how long this walking on egg shells is going to be happening. I dont want to get attached to you. So i guess that means im going to need to go out and find someone esle. Because i cant watch myself fall apart everytime with you. It hurts to much.
I hurt to much.
I hate hurting
what does she have that I don't?
.....his heart
I hurt to much.
I hate hurting
what does she have that I don't?
.....his heart