just get out.
so jesse and i get into this verbally abraisive conversation about deej and caitlin.
i was defending her and he was defending deej.
well, he proved me wrong and we get to this crossroad because i told him he was right and he goes, "now you're mad at me."
i said, "no i'm not i'm just, exasperated."
he said, "well tell me what's wrong. why are you exasperated. was it something i said?"
i said, "no i just don't feel like talking about it so lets move on."
he said, "well i'm going to get off the phone in a few seconds so..."
i said, "why are you getting off the phone?!"
he said, "because you don't seem to want to talk and i do and lately i feel like i'm not being [trusted] with a lot of people."
i said, "why does everything i say matter? why is it that i always have to explain everything with you?"
he said, "i just want to know. goodnight, sweet dreams, i love you girl." [dial tone]
[threw the phone across the room]
why does he have to know everything? is it because he used to know everything inside my head and i've put up my walls again?
he thought he was in and now he's out because i just don't trust people. males in general.
even jesse. i love him so much cause he's my boy. my boy forever.
he just can't know everything.
and christine i'm sorry for saying this but i have to.
he's acting just like clifford used to all the time.
if i wouldn't say something, what's on my mind, or my opinion, what i was thinking or mainly: what was bothering me, he'd do everything in his power to get it out.
and sometimes i just want you to stay out of my head! there're somethings you just don't want to know and that i don't want you to know.
god.
why can't anyone see that!
we girls, put these walls here for a reason so you can't get through them because we want things to ourselves so leave us alone.
we all have demons inside us. we all have angels inside us. we all have skeletons inside us.
and i'm not about to let anyone to ever know mine again.
so don't...try.
i was defending her and he was defending deej.
well, he proved me wrong and we get to this crossroad because i told him he was right and he goes, "now you're mad at me."
i said, "no i'm not i'm just, exasperated."
he said, "well tell me what's wrong. why are you exasperated. was it something i said?"
i said, "no i just don't feel like talking about it so lets move on."
he said, "well i'm going to get off the phone in a few seconds so..."
i said, "why are you getting off the phone?!"
he said, "because you don't seem to want to talk and i do and lately i feel like i'm not being [trusted] with a lot of people."
i said, "why does everything i say matter? why is it that i always have to explain everything with you?"
he said, "i just want to know. goodnight, sweet dreams, i love you girl." [dial tone]
[threw the phone across the room]
why does he have to know everything? is it because he used to know everything inside my head and i've put up my walls again?
he thought he was in and now he's out because i just don't trust people. males in general.
even jesse. i love him so much cause he's my boy. my boy forever.
he just can't know everything.
and christine i'm sorry for saying this but i have to.
he's acting just like clifford used to all the time.
if i wouldn't say something, what's on my mind, or my opinion, what i was thinking or mainly: what was bothering me, he'd do everything in his power to get it out.
and sometimes i just want you to stay out of my head! there're somethings you just don't want to know and that i don't want you to know.
god.
why can't anyone see that!
we girls, put these walls here for a reason so you can't get through them because we want things to ourselves so leave us alone.
we all have demons inside us. we all have angels inside us. we all have skeletons inside us.
and i'm not about to let anyone to ever know mine again.
so don't...try.