my golly dolly...
so.. the drama continues.. i dont why i bother with people.. i dont know why they ignore everything i say.. and continue to blame me for things.. disregarding what they have done to me.. i admit.. ive been a bitch.. and i've hurt people.. most of the time not intentionally. but it doesnt matter anymore.. cause then for some reason.. people lean over to their side.. instead of looking over to the other.. people are self consumed.. its always me me me.. and.. when its time for me to think of myself.. im selfish... woo wee.. thanks to all you no good fuekrs out there that make me feel like shit. thanks to all the people.. ive cared abotu that acted like ass to me... thanks to all the people. i spent time comforting.. that now wont give me a fukn min out of their day... and again.. THANKS TO YOU FUKERS.. IM ALL FUCKED UP!!!!! well of course. a big thanks to my overly emotional ass. i take everythign to the head. and thrash the crap out of myself for every single negatvie word that has been spoken to me. and every single action that has ever caused me pain.. yes. im a weakling. i care too much about people. and their sadistic thoughts.. i envy their ways.. i envy those so called friends that continue to screw me over.. and live life to the fullest.. thinking their so damn perfect. i envy those fukers i wasted my time on.. now theyre better people because of me. and they dotn even fukn realize it. btu its alright.. everything's just pretty shitty.. all my bad habits are coming back.. yes ALL OF THEM. isnt that some shit..
on the bright side. dead poetic is playing in august. and meagan is going with me. so that's good news..
"The Dreamclub Murders" by Dead Poetic
So after all, you needed more than a death-threat fall.
You needed more, and I let you fall.
Into the coffin with your floor-dropped jaw.
And I remember you aspiration, your dream to fit in.
But it's gone, and they're here.
So let's kill these felons now.
But I remember you, you'll go, you'll find a way back home.
But I remember you, when you stand there,
You stand with your eyes closed.
And I feel, tonight, that I let you die.
But you could have lived forever, it took smiles to keep you alive.
But heroes die, and so did mine.
But you go, and I stay, will it keep you at peace now.
But I remember you, you'll go, you'll find a way back home.
But I remember you, when you stand there,
You stand with your eyes closed.
And I'll dig you out, and I'll sit you up.
For the fools to find you, the fools breathe into you.
So sleep child no one can touch you now.
No one can hurt you now. Not here. Anymore.
and im done,
GEM
on the bright side. dead poetic is playing in august. and meagan is going with me. so that's good news..
"The Dreamclub Murders" by Dead Poetic
So after all, you needed more than a death-threat fall.
You needed more, and I let you fall.
Into the coffin with your floor-dropped jaw.
And I remember you aspiration, your dream to fit in.
But it's gone, and they're here.
So let's kill these felons now.
But I remember you, you'll go, you'll find a way back home.
But I remember you, when you stand there,
You stand with your eyes closed.
And I feel, tonight, that I let you die.
But you could have lived forever, it took smiles to keep you alive.
But heroes die, and so did mine.
But you go, and I stay, will it keep you at peace now.
But I remember you, you'll go, you'll find a way back home.
But I remember you, when you stand there,
You stand with your eyes closed.
And I'll dig you out, and I'll sit you up.
For the fools to find you, the fools breathe into you.
So sleep child no one can touch you now.
No one can hurt you now. Not here. Anymore.
and im done,
GEM