i'm thinkin i would prefer not to be rescued..
So the only time I ever write in this thing is when I have shit to complain about.
I guess I am going to continue that trend tonight.
This whole college thing is not what I thought it would be at all.
I mean I have moments where I am like wow this is really cool.
But it just really sucks most of the time.
I dont' really mind the classes.
Its just I miss everyone back home.
I have been coming home every weekend.
But I dont' have enough time to hang out with everyone.
And it makes me feel like shit.
I already feel like I am drifting from some of my closest friends.
And I feel like it is beyond of my control to fix that.
I am not a person that makes new friends easily.
I mean I would like to think I am easy to get along with.
But I just don't talk to people, I never had.
In school I always stuck with Ashley.
And all the other friends I had were just both me and Ashley's friends.
Like most of them just viewed us as one person, and that sucked.
But I realize why they thought that.
I really miss Amanda Emily and a few other people.
I haven't seen them for such a long time..
Well I saw Amanda this weekend but only for a few hours.
I just hate not talking to people.
And now I can't even talk to people on the cell phone that much.
Because apperntly having a $400 cell phone bill is a bad thing.
So really I can't talk unless its after 9pm or a weekend.
Or if the person also has Cingular.
Curtis and Ashley are the only people I talk to a lot anymore.
And thank god for that or I would be completly insane.
But yeah I am going to stick with this college thing.
Becuase I know it has to be done.. it just sucks.
Nobody reads this anyway so I am done.
I guess I am going to continue that trend tonight.
This whole college thing is not what I thought it would be at all.
I mean I have moments where I am like wow this is really cool.
But it just really sucks most of the time.
I dont' really mind the classes.
Its just I miss everyone back home.
I have been coming home every weekend.
But I dont' have enough time to hang out with everyone.
And it makes me feel like shit.
I already feel like I am drifting from some of my closest friends.
And I feel like it is beyond of my control to fix that.
I am not a person that makes new friends easily.
I mean I would like to think I am easy to get along with.
But I just don't talk to people, I never had.
In school I always stuck with Ashley.
And all the other friends I had were just both me and Ashley's friends.
Like most of them just viewed us as one person, and that sucked.
But I realize why they thought that.
I really miss Amanda Emily and a few other people.
I haven't seen them for such a long time..
Well I saw Amanda this weekend but only for a few hours.
I just hate not talking to people.
And now I can't even talk to people on the cell phone that much.
Because apperntly having a $400 cell phone bill is a bad thing.
So really I can't talk unless its after 9pm or a weekend.
Or if the person also has Cingular.
Curtis and Ashley are the only people I talk to a lot anymore.
And thank god for that or I would be completly insane.
But yeah I am going to stick with this college thing.
Becuase I know it has to be done.. it just sucks.
Nobody reads this anyway so I am done.