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okay wow.. i dont even knoe wher to start. this is wierrd not last night but the night befor ::friday night:: umm hung out with my giirls Brandy n Kristin n then went to sum party n then left with sum guy that graduated from De la sal how ever u spell that lol n he picked me up went to his house which had a KEG!!! partied got way to drunk that i cant really remember anything. except one thing.. n this is rellie wierdd.... iight i was with one guy and i dunno his name but hes pretty cute so anyways we were together n the onli thought that came to my mind was *him* :o( i dont wanna feel like that at all i wanna be with other guys n have fun with other guys not just *him* but my heart kept racing n my mind was confused i was tryin so hard to fergett about him and it just wasnt workkinng. well anyways this guy n me were kinda like hookin up or what ever and the hole tiime i was thinking i was kissing *him* and not the other guy it was terrible. my mind was racing so fast and its makin me upset. cuz i know i can have *him* but i DONT WANT TO HAVE HIM WERE JUST RELLE GOOD FRIENDS THAT HANG OUT A LOT ..!! damn its badd.. like every time we hang out we hold hands n kiss n shiit like nothing is going on. thats how i want it but theres one problem. i think im falling for him and it suckss cuz i wanna beable to kiss other guys with out pretending its him... and i wanna beable to have fun this summer n party with out thinking about him. i donno what to do i was talkin to my mom n she told me theres nothin i can do about my feelings and that you cant help who you fall for and if i just keep tellin myself i dont wanna be with him its gonna make it worse.!! sooo you knoe i think im just gonna have to deal with theses feelings and shyt. i wish there was an easier way yto get out of this.. but its hard.. and i havent hung out with him in about 3 or 4 days and i miss him sooooooo much and i dont wanna miss him i wanna just beable to hang out do what ever be happy and wake up knowing i dont want him. OMG!!! its not gonna work.. what ever im fuckin out..
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Insiders this week
Angela- god i wish i was a witch then i could just go *CHAIR* (haha lmFao funny as fuckk)
Brandy- kid your my fuckin DAWG * DO I LOOK LIKE A NIGGER TO YOU * hAHA
ALLIE- ITS RAINING *the windshield wipers* hah lmFAO
KRISTIN- omg at the fuckin party wen Brandy n tracy kept talkin about them fuckin soapoperas!!!!!!!!! *HIGHLIGHT* of my week i think i nevver laughed so damn hard in a long time (i lu)
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Insiders this week
Angela- god i wish i was a witch then i could just go *CHAIR* (haha lmFao funny as fuckk)
Brandy- kid your my fuckin DAWG * DO I LOOK LIKE A NIGGER TO YOU * hAHA
ALLIE- ITS RAINING *the windshield wipers* hah lmFAO
KRISTIN- omg at the fuckin party wen Brandy n tracy kept talkin about them fuckin soapoperas!!!!!!!!! *HIGHLIGHT* of my week i think i nevver laughed so damn hard in a long time (i lu)