Funny thing
I sit here and think about a few things. I think about what I post here and how open I tend to be at sometimes. Sure there is a lot I don't say but still. I honestly wonder who reads this really. There is a lot of complications in my life and in a few of my weird friendships and bonds with ppl. I'm known to over look how ppl tend to behave and just settle for half friendships and warped ones because sometimes that's all ppl can give. Still thou I keep part of myself at arms tenths because face it when someone isn't able to or chooses not to give their all why should u lol.
Anyways what I'm trying to say is I guess I like being how I am. I share my life because its a gift I can do. I'm trying to get better about how I deal with things. I know I can be negative but it never last long lol I don't preach about god much because I've never been comfortable doing so. I have mixed friends and well I can't deal well with ppl who only talk about God because they lose their human element that makes them real and makes ppl want to listen. I'm not sayin behave bad or forsake ur beliefs but god did give us the ability to think to feel and to live. I just think back when I had the passion for it I should've went to be a minister like I wanted to lol.. yeah not many ppl know about that but then I wouldn't view things like I do today because of what I've gone threw. My life is ever changing. There are things I wish I could change but I'm not losing sleep over it. Maybe ill get a chance to gain what I lost in a different form. God does work in mysterious ways they say. I know he's.good about smacking me when need be haha
Anyways what I'm trying to say is I guess I like being how I am. I share my life because its a gift I can do. I'm trying to get better about how I deal with things. I know I can be negative but it never last long lol I don't preach about god much because I've never been comfortable doing so. I have mixed friends and well I can't deal well with ppl who only talk about God because they lose their human element that makes them real and makes ppl want to listen. I'm not sayin behave bad or forsake ur beliefs but god did give us the ability to think to feel and to live. I just think back when I had the passion for it I should've went to be a minister like I wanted to lol.. yeah not many ppl know about that but then I wouldn't view things like I do today because of what I've gone threw. My life is ever changing. There are things I wish I could change but I'm not losing sleep over it. Maybe ill get a chance to gain what I lost in a different form. God does work in mysterious ways they say. I know he's.good about smacking me when need be haha