I can't hide that I relied on you, like yellow does on blue.
So all of a sudden I'm a teenager from a movie-- heartbroken, emo, and utterly pathetic. This makes me feel really stupid, but I think there is decent reasoning behind it that not everyone can understand because they simply don't have empathy. The beginning of my senior year has been COMPLETELY different than I had ever imagined it to be, and I'm surrounded by a new environment and a new type of vibe that I can't even explain. I'm applying to college, I'm single and confused, I have a couple of new good friends, but I simply feel WEIRD.
Coming out of a two year relationship hurt and lied to does not exactly improve your opinion of those around you and ultimately makes you bitter. I never understood when this happened to other people and I just found it irritating, but now it's my turn to experience it first hand... I hate it. I love my best friends, I really do, and as far as the four main ones that I have-- I am confident they would never hurt me. Yet I feel bitter and betrayed, and with the exception of two of those above mentioned people, I have lost any remaining faith I once had in the opposite sex! They are all disgusting, it's like, go get some human feelings. puhlease.
So that was a very subtle, very brief version of my necessary rant. And I do apologize for it. I'm not moody or mopey, but the past 3 weeks have been hell and there's no denying it for me.
ANYWAY, on a lighter note, I NEED MUSIC and my speakers aren't working!! My room on weeknights without music is cold and lonely :(
Kay. Yay for my first entry.
Coming out of a two year relationship hurt and lied to does not exactly improve your opinion of those around you and ultimately makes you bitter. I never understood when this happened to other people and I just found it irritating, but now it's my turn to experience it first hand... I hate it. I love my best friends, I really do, and as far as the four main ones that I have-- I am confident they would never hurt me. Yet I feel bitter and betrayed, and with the exception of two of those above mentioned people, I have lost any remaining faith I once had in the opposite sex! They are all disgusting, it's like, go get some human feelings. puhlease.
So that was a very subtle, very brief version of my necessary rant. And I do apologize for it. I'm not moody or mopey, but the past 3 weeks have been hell and there's no denying it for me.
ANYWAY, on a lighter note, I NEED MUSIC and my speakers aren't working!! My room on weeknights without music is cold and lonely :(
Kay. Yay for my first entry.