You don't have to read this...I'm just ranting..
There is a fine line between love and hate, and I'm not sure which side you stand...
At the risk of sounding like a total wimp right now, I'm going to say something...my heart is broken. I can't believe the things that he did, and then to have the audacity to try an guilt me into forgiving him? What kind of garbage is that?
What "good man" would have the audacity to sit back and promise me that what I'd experience with certain men in the past would never happen again if he had anything to do with it, and then in the same breath, turn around and hurt me ten times worse?
What "good man" would build me back up from the broken mess that I was, only to tear me back down to even smaller pieces?
What "good man" would tell me to my face that he loves my daughter, but go behind my back and tell his friends that he's not sure if he even wants me because he hates kids?
I could go on, and on, and make a list of many ways that this "good man" hurt me, so why the hell would I want to up and forgive him for it? I'm sure that half the women in this world wouldn't even be talking to a man who did the things that he did to me, so he should be grateful that I'm even doing that. I can't be forced or coerced into being with him again after the things that he did. Sure, this all happened a while back, but I haven't gotten over it because I was left to myself to get over it!
To you.... dude, you left me behind, and you expected to pick up the pieces of myself that you'd broken. The pieces of myself that were already broken before you came along and had the audacity to do it all over again. You didn't call, you didn't write, you didn't visit while you were away, and when you did come to town, I had to hear about it after the fact from mutual friends. I started talking to you again because for the life of me, even after all the shit you pulled, i couldn't get over you, and I couldn't bring myself to live a life without you being a part of it. My heart was broken, my health was fucked up, and my life was in ruins because of the shit that you did, and now, two years later, I'm supposed to forgive you? Why? Can you answer that question for me?
Is it because you were such a "good man" to come back around to talk to me after six months? Or because you were such a "good man" to break up with a fiance you made me have to find out about through our friends? This isn't a fantasy land. I can't just up and forgive you because you want me to. I can't do it. I've tried.
It's over, It's done with, and you're the cause for it. From now on, whatever happens in your life isn't going to include me, and I'm not sorry for that, but you should be.
"Over You"
~Daughtry~
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
:)
At the risk of sounding like a total wimp right now, I'm going to say something...my heart is broken. I can't believe the things that he did, and then to have the audacity to try an guilt me into forgiving him? What kind of garbage is that?
What "good man" would have the audacity to sit back and promise me that what I'd experience with certain men in the past would never happen again if he had anything to do with it, and then in the same breath, turn around and hurt me ten times worse?
What "good man" would build me back up from the broken mess that I was, only to tear me back down to even smaller pieces?
What "good man" would tell me to my face that he loves my daughter, but go behind my back and tell his friends that he's not sure if he even wants me because he hates kids?
I could go on, and on, and make a list of many ways that this "good man" hurt me, so why the hell would I want to up and forgive him for it? I'm sure that half the women in this world wouldn't even be talking to a man who did the things that he did to me, so he should be grateful that I'm even doing that. I can't be forced or coerced into being with him again after the things that he did. Sure, this all happened a while back, but I haven't gotten over it because I was left to myself to get over it!
To you.... dude, you left me behind, and you expected to pick up the pieces of myself that you'd broken. The pieces of myself that were already broken before you came along and had the audacity to do it all over again. You didn't call, you didn't write, you didn't visit while you were away, and when you did come to town, I had to hear about it after the fact from mutual friends. I started talking to you again because for the life of me, even after all the shit you pulled, i couldn't get over you, and I couldn't bring myself to live a life without you being a part of it. My heart was broken, my health was fucked up, and my life was in ruins because of the shit that you did, and now, two years later, I'm supposed to forgive you? Why? Can you answer that question for me?
Is it because you were such a "good man" to come back around to talk to me after six months? Or because you were such a "good man" to break up with a fiance you made me have to find out about through our friends? This isn't a fantasy land. I can't just up and forgive you because you want me to. I can't do it. I've tried.
It's over, It's done with, and you're the cause for it. From now on, whatever happens in your life isn't going to include me, and I'm not sorry for that, but you should be.
"Over You"
~Daughtry~
Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
:)