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[brittxbritt]

I just want everything bad to disappear. This year has been pretty messed up for me. I wish I could talk to someone about it all but I feel like I've had too much drama that no one will want to hear about it. A lot of things I never thought would happen did. I love who I'm with right now but I hate feeling like crap for letting someone else down. I can't be with you just because thats what we thought would happen. I hate being made to feel like crap even though I didn't do anything. I understand that breaking up is hard but I have two people being bitter to me about it. I'm sorry and I still care but I don't know what to do anymore. I didn't mean to hurt you but I couldn't lie like that. I am happy but I cannot be okay until you are. You mean a lot to me and I hope you understand that. I didn't use you like you think I did. I never lied. I did still liked you when I said those things. I told you my true intentions the whole time. I'm sorry it wasn't what you wanted.

Also, I wish the asshole who keeps bothering me would just grow the fuck up.