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Thank you to everyone for your calls, text messages, instant messages, and myspace messages. It seriously means the world to me that I have awesome friends that care enough to check up on me. Things are a little hectic around my house hold. People are coming and going. There are tons of phone calls coming in. Final plans are being set for the wake and funeral. I got the most beautiful dress for the wake and some pretty flats to wear too. (My Nana would have killed me if I didn't wear a dress at some point..I have to be a lady!) I've seen so many wonderful pictures of her and spent the past few days talking about all the great memories with her.
I was with her when she took her final breaths and when it was finally all over. I just wish last night I hadn't found out some frustrating news about a person I used to call a good friend. All I can say to that is for everyone to please stop trying to stick their noses into other people's bussiness. If I wanted to make it your bussiness...I would...but when something doesn't involve you and you don't know ANYTHING about what you are talking about..please for my sake and your own...keep your mouth shut.
Other then that, my emotions have been up and down. I broke down in the store while trying to find something to wear. Then I was fine for a while. I broke down when Mama D, my Aunt Wendy, and I were sitting in the living room tonight listening to Michael Buble. Tomorrow should be better, but Thursday is the wake and Friday is the funeral and I know niether of those will be as easy. I plan on writing something to read at her funeral because I know she would have asked me too if she was able to speak her final days. I spent so much time with her when I was growing up that I owe it to our friends and family to share all of our funny stories and inside jokes. Even if she couldn't exactly remeber them the past years.
I'm sure you will have plenty of entries to read and I'm sorry about these not being so happy, but I'm getting through this. All I can ask from you guys is that next week when I'm back to work..we spend time together and hang out. Even if it's sitting around watching crappy, but always enjoyable reality tv together or going out for pointless drives. I love you guys and please don't ever forget that. I appreciate everything I have and everything you, my friends, have done for me. I try my best to show you all how much I care, but if I don't show it enough, I care so much about you all.
xo.
I was with her when she took her final breaths and when it was finally all over. I just wish last night I hadn't found out some frustrating news about a person I used to call a good friend. All I can say to that is for everyone to please stop trying to stick their noses into other people's bussiness. If I wanted to make it your bussiness...I would...but when something doesn't involve you and you don't know ANYTHING about what you are talking about..please for my sake and your own...keep your mouth shut.
Other then that, my emotions have been up and down. I broke down in the store while trying to find something to wear. Then I was fine for a while. I broke down when Mama D, my Aunt Wendy, and I were sitting in the living room tonight listening to Michael Buble. Tomorrow should be better, but Thursday is the wake and Friday is the funeral and I know niether of those will be as easy. I plan on writing something to read at her funeral because I know she would have asked me too if she was able to speak her final days. I spent so much time with her when I was growing up that I owe it to our friends and family to share all of our funny stories and inside jokes. Even if she couldn't exactly remeber them the past years.
I'm sure you will have plenty of entries to read and I'm sorry about these not being so happy, but I'm getting through this. All I can ask from you guys is that next week when I'm back to work..we spend time together and hang out. Even if it's sitting around watching crappy, but always enjoyable reality tv together or going out for pointless drives. I love you guys and please don't ever forget that. I appreciate everything I have and everything you, my friends, have done for me. I try my best to show you all how much I care, but if I don't show it enough, I care so much about you all.
xo.