reflections
this year has been very strange and i would like to take this time to acknowledge all the great and not so great events.
~new friends~ this year i became closer to a lot of people. i became friends with olie and smitty and jon and angie all special thanks to libbi. jmaie and i are so close now too. i mean sure we have always been friends but never this close. she is great! i also got pretty close to nikki. she is so great i love her to death. i am really going to miss her next year.
~old friends~ lets start with libbi since she has had the greatest impact on my life. we've been through it all but i guess that she is now placed in the old friends category becauase i am no longer considered her friend. but thats not what matters. what matters is all the great times that we did share and the person she has shaped me into. i would be so lost if it weren't for her. i appreciate everything despite all the bad things. so thanks for everything libbi. rachel....we started this year out kind of recovering from allison and ended up becoming pretty close once again. a little too close though because we only fell through again. no matter how much we fight and disagree you are still one my best friends ever. and we are always going to be that way. nicole and i have had such a rough year and still i do not know where we stand it is so hard to say. all i know is that we are there for each other and that is all that matters. stacey and i have been all over the place in our friendship but she's made everything worthwhile it was good to have someone understand my entire brian situation. jeromy, my baby, you are one of the greatest things that has ever happened to me and i am going to miss you so much! you have made this such a wonderful year. and last of the old friends is brittany. she makes everything seem so bright and cheerful. i would never make it through the school day and be able to put up with everyonbe's shit if it weren't for her. she keeps me sane.
~ex-boyfriends~ mike, he counts but for one reason only, he has totally made me realize a lot of things. mike was an asshole and of course he was sweet to me and i liked him so much but he was such an ass and he put me through so much crap. he made me realize that men ARE the devil and that they do use you and that they don't care. but i don't regret my time with him, had it of lasted any longer though is a different story. brain (aka brian), where should i start. brian has been one of the greatest things that has ever happened to me but also one of the worst. he helped me to learn alout about myself. but he has made my life a living hell. he is the single most irrestable,irritating, confusing, gorgeous, asshole, i have ever met. and its hard to look back on the times we shared and say that i don't want you back. but finally i can. and it feels so good. after everything i gave you i got nothing in return and i am tired of not being cared for. you are such an important person in my life and i will never stop caring about you but i will stop wasting my time on you, and take all the great memories along with me. thank you for everything!
.... i will never forget the night that i got so trashed and i wore dennis' leather jacket and crawled around on his pt claiming that i was "cruisin'"
.... i will never forget going to steak and shake and feeding everyone including angie and libbi cherries because that is sexy
.... i will never forget the night that we broke into a camper and crashed there for the night because we felt like it
.... i will never forget the late nights we stayed up talking and crying about everything while holding hands
.... i will never forget the night that ryan wilson hit on me caitlin and angie and believed that angie was 25
.... i will never forget the night that jamie made out with nathan in craig's jeep at mandy's party while i was inside breakin it down
.... i will never forget my one night with smitty and how dumb i was for chosing mike over that
.... i will never forget eating wheat thins and easy cheese for every meal for like 6 months nor will i foget frnch fries and doughnuts at 6 in the morning
.... i will never forget sitting in the front row of "a midsummer night's dream" holding hands and snorting
.... i will never forget anyone or all of the great wonderous things we have shared! i love you all!
things to come........ lanny is something new and great in my life and i hope that he is just as perfect as he seems and that things go spectacular. fair this year better be great. i mean fair is always great but this year needs to be kick ass. the dave matthews concert is going to be great. will be great because i will be with aaron jamie and jared, all great friends who i will have a blast with. and the dave cd that comes out july 16 and i can't wait for it. skinning dipping at the lake will be great and i promis this yr that i will check beforehand to see if they have a girlfriend. well i am sure that they are many more things to come but the events of this summer are unpredictable.
~new friends~ this year i became closer to a lot of people. i became friends with olie and smitty and jon and angie all special thanks to libbi. jmaie and i are so close now too. i mean sure we have always been friends but never this close. she is great! i also got pretty close to nikki. she is so great i love her to death. i am really going to miss her next year.
~old friends~ lets start with libbi since she has had the greatest impact on my life. we've been through it all but i guess that she is now placed in the old friends category becauase i am no longer considered her friend. but thats not what matters. what matters is all the great times that we did share and the person she has shaped me into. i would be so lost if it weren't for her. i appreciate everything despite all the bad things. so thanks for everything libbi. rachel....we started this year out kind of recovering from allison and ended up becoming pretty close once again. a little too close though because we only fell through again. no matter how much we fight and disagree you are still one my best friends ever. and we are always going to be that way. nicole and i have had such a rough year and still i do not know where we stand it is so hard to say. all i know is that we are there for each other and that is all that matters. stacey and i have been all over the place in our friendship but she's made everything worthwhile it was good to have someone understand my entire brian situation. jeromy, my baby, you are one of the greatest things that has ever happened to me and i am going to miss you so much! you have made this such a wonderful year. and last of the old friends is brittany. she makes everything seem so bright and cheerful. i would never make it through the school day and be able to put up with everyonbe's shit if it weren't for her. she keeps me sane.
~ex-boyfriends~ mike, he counts but for one reason only, he has totally made me realize a lot of things. mike was an asshole and of course he was sweet to me and i liked him so much but he was such an ass and he put me through so much crap. he made me realize that men ARE the devil and that they do use you and that they don't care. but i don't regret my time with him, had it of lasted any longer though is a different story. brain (aka brian), where should i start. brian has been one of the greatest things that has ever happened to me but also one of the worst. he helped me to learn alout about myself. but he has made my life a living hell. he is the single most irrestable,irritating, confusing, gorgeous, asshole, i have ever met. and its hard to look back on the times we shared and say that i don't want you back. but finally i can. and it feels so good. after everything i gave you i got nothing in return and i am tired of not being cared for. you are such an important person in my life and i will never stop caring about you but i will stop wasting my time on you, and take all the great memories along with me. thank you for everything!
.... i will never forget the night that i got so trashed and i wore dennis' leather jacket and crawled around on his pt claiming that i was "cruisin'"
.... i will never forget going to steak and shake and feeding everyone including angie and libbi cherries because that is sexy
.... i will never forget the night that we broke into a camper and crashed there for the night because we felt like it
.... i will never forget the late nights we stayed up talking and crying about everything while holding hands
.... i will never forget the night that ryan wilson hit on me caitlin and angie and believed that angie was 25
.... i will never forget the night that jamie made out with nathan in craig's jeep at mandy's party while i was inside breakin it down
.... i will never forget my one night with smitty and how dumb i was for chosing mike over that
.... i will never forget eating wheat thins and easy cheese for every meal for like 6 months nor will i foget frnch fries and doughnuts at 6 in the morning
.... i will never forget sitting in the front row of "a midsummer night's dream" holding hands and snorting
.... i will never forget anyone or all of the great wonderous things we have shared! i love you all!
things to come........ lanny is something new and great in my life and i hope that he is just as perfect as he seems and that things go spectacular. fair this year better be great. i mean fair is always great but this year needs to be kick ass. the dave matthews concert is going to be great. will be great because i will be with aaron jamie and jared, all great friends who i will have a blast with. and the dave cd that comes out july 16 and i can't wait for it. skinning dipping at the lake will be great and i promis this yr that i will check beforehand to see if they have a girlfriend. well i am sure that they are many more things to come but the events of this summer are unpredictable.