Jan 18, 2005 17:02
-points to subject- Yeah. Um. In theater, we had a sub, so we didn't have to do our scene (YAY! We weren't even close to ready.) so instead we practiced it. It was pretty fun cuz I brought all the props and yeah. But Tom, this guy idiot in our group none of us like, put all his lines in a Sports Illustrated magazine that he was planning on using to cheat on his lines. But we took it away from him. :) He wouldn't have been allowed to read a 2005 sports magazine during a play set in the forties anyway. Haha. So after we went through it a couple times, we sat around a table and played cards while going through lines. Then this guy Nick walked over and Tom said, "Hey, doesn't he look like Lord Farquat?" (The villain in the first Shreck movie) We all agreed (cuz he does look like him haha) and then I said to Tom, "Then you must be Shreck!" Everyone yelled, "Ohhhh! Burn!" And then Tom said, "Ohh, I got rolled up and LIT!" ...And everyone stared at him... then laughed. So then we kept saying that, along with things like, "word" and "yo" and "home skillet biskit" (...I got it from my brother...Don't ask...) That was, like, the best class all year. :D
OKAY, on a more serious note. I think I really like Korinne. Sorry if I'm creeping you out at all obsessing over a girl, or if you think it's wrong or anything, but I didn't feel like making a private entry. ANYWAY, today at lunch she was going on and on about.. well... herself. About how confused she is, how no one knows the real her, how she wants to let people in and show people everything about her, yet she also wants to keep to herself. She just totally spilled almost everything about her. She's all tough and agressive on the outside, but really deep and complex on the inside. And a lot of the stuff she said sounds like me. She's so mysterious and different from anyone else I've met. And it seems like she's searching for herself just like me. I'm learning so much about her in such a short amount of time. And I kinda like it. :)
One thing Korinne kept saying near the end of lunch was what a loser she is. I just kept saying, "You are NOT a loser!" and "C'mon, you're, like, my favorite person in this whole friggin' school!" But she doesn't care. She says everyone hates her and thinks she's a freak and a loser except for her friends, who always say she's the coolest person ever. Of course, that means that everyone who gets to know her thinks she's really cool, but I guess she didn't think about that. She's just so different and she knows it. Even more different than the different people. (I don't CARE if that makes sense or not, I'm saying it ANYWAY) I was dying to tell her how much I really like her, as a friend and as, well, more than that. And that's not the kind of thing you randomly blurt out to a girl... especially when you're a girl. :/ I was trying so hard not to blurt out, "I love you!" (I don't actually love her, I was just... caught up in the moment sorta) She feels like she needs to insult people to make her feel better about herself because she feels so inferior to everyone.
The thing is, she keeps calling herself a loser and a freak, when really someone likes her so much more than she knows. People always put themselves down and act like they're the worst scum and trash to ever crawl this earth. When they're not. Everyone is loved by someone so much more than they know, sometimes by the most unexpected people, like me with Korinne. Trust me, when you feel like the dirt underneath someone's feet, for all you know that person stepping on you could be the one person who cares about you so much more than you can imagine. Everyone has someone out there for them, and everyone feels like the world would be a better place without them at times, but you've gotta get back up and remember that "To the world, you are just one person. But to one person, you may be the world."
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