I dont even get it. I wouldnt do that to you!
Ok i dont get it. Like why are people making me so upset. But i think its so stupid how everyone thinks all my actions that i do are because of Benn. Benn has nothing to do w. what i want to or like to do. I have done plenty of things with out him and have had a great time. Yes i do like spending a lot a time w. him but i wish that everyone could just hang out together. Or that i would not get talked down to for wanting to do things w. him or still being his friend. I just wish that people who say they are my friends would support me and actully be friends and not people who just tell me when they think i'm doing something wrong. Benn is not Krystle's favorite person but they still get along, talk, hang out and she even loves the fact that i have been holding on to his and mine relationship for so long. I just wish the people that i am around the most would understand that no matter what they say or do that i will always be friends w. Benn and we will hang out. I could see if i was like ditching everyone for him all the time, then anyone would have the right to be upset. But when i invite people along w. us because i want to have a good time w. everyone and people still get mad, what do i do then. I guess i just have issues w. making everyone else happy but myself. I just wish that for once, people would see what truly makes me happy and accept. Which brings me to Prom. After changing my mind 4 times about it...I'm not going. No this has NOTHING to do w. Benn. I just dont want to waste my time or money on something where i'm not going to have that much fun because i will really not know anyone there. Krystle is not even going now. So there is really no point.Josh and i are really good friends so i'm sure he will understand because he is actully one of the few understanding and supportive friends i have. And that pisses me off because i always support my friends w. things that i know will make them happy.Even if i dont agree. Everyone knows that i would never tell them things that would make them unhappy in the decisions they are taking. But i guess thats what i get for pleasing everyone else. But i dont think it can no longer continue.