forgetting the past and looking towards the future
Wow. That's what explains my weekend. Friday night I stayed up at Ramapo because I had a final on Saturday. Drama always. I wasn't even in NE and there was mad shit going down. Boy, it will never end.
So I woke up Saturday and realized that I was sick of this stupid childish bull between me and CJ. I text him and he text me back. It was civil. Can you believe it? So later that night, we met up at CB's apartment in Freehold. (which is beautiful by the way ...and i'm so proud of CB). We all ended up drinking and having fun. Me and CJ talked about everything. Even the rumors. We both said we were sick of people coming up to us going "CJ did this...Brittany did this". We are NOT together so why do we care about what the other one is doing? So for people who keep starting rumors and shit, we do not care! We decided to be friends and forget about the crap that happened in the past. I don't forgive, but I will forget. We talked until 6 in the morning. I can't believe after 2 months of not talking we had sooo much to say. It really was nice. I am ready to be friends and be there for him when he needs me. I'm over the bull. I'm not gonna lie, I miss him a lot, but I won't go back because I won't put myself through that again. He feels the same way. I feel good. I feel like I can move on from that part of my life. I feel some sort of relief. It hurts my heart to see him and hear about the things he is doing but I can do it. Well, I'm sure new rumors will start this week about me and CJ, so I will clear them up before they start. No, we are not going back out again, no we are not getting back together, NO we did not hook up, yes we did hang out, yes we did talk, yes we did decide to be FRIENDS.
"If I say who I know it just goes to show
You need me less than I need you
Take it from me
We don't give sympathy
You can trust me trust nobody
But I said you and me
We don't have honesty
The things we don't want to speak
I'll try to get out but I never will
Traffic is perfectly still
Were only taking turns
Holding this world
It's how it's always been
When you're older you will understand"
I'm home for a month tomorrow. I hope I pass all my classes. I'm so nervous. I can't wait to spend time with my family and friends and not have to do homework. I hate Christmas, but I'm looking forward to New Year's!!! Dee and I call myself the baby Grinch. haha.
"You swear you recall nothing at all
That could make you come back down
You made up your mind to leave it all behind
Now you're forced to fight it out
You fall away from your past
But it's following you
You left something undone, it's now your rerun
It's the one you can't erase
You should have made it right, so you wouldn't have to fight
To put a smile back on your face
Something I've done that I can't outrun
Maybe you should wait maybe you should run
But there's something you've said that can't be undone"
So I woke up Saturday and realized that I was sick of this stupid childish bull between me and CJ. I text him and he text me back. It was civil. Can you believe it? So later that night, we met up at CB's apartment in Freehold. (which is beautiful by the way ...and i'm so proud of CB). We all ended up drinking and having fun. Me and CJ talked about everything. Even the rumors. We both said we were sick of people coming up to us going "CJ did this...Brittany did this". We are NOT together so why do we care about what the other one is doing? So for people who keep starting rumors and shit, we do not care! We decided to be friends and forget about the crap that happened in the past. I don't forgive, but I will forget. We talked until 6 in the morning. I can't believe after 2 months of not talking we had sooo much to say. It really was nice. I am ready to be friends and be there for him when he needs me. I'm over the bull. I'm not gonna lie, I miss him a lot, but I won't go back because I won't put myself through that again. He feels the same way. I feel good. I feel like I can move on from that part of my life. I feel some sort of relief. It hurts my heart to see him and hear about the things he is doing but I can do it. Well, I'm sure new rumors will start this week about me and CJ, so I will clear them up before they start. No, we are not going back out again, no we are not getting back together, NO we did not hook up, yes we did hang out, yes we did talk, yes we did decide to be FRIENDS.
"If I say who I know it just goes to show
You need me less than I need you
Take it from me
We don't give sympathy
You can trust me trust nobody
But I said you and me
We don't have honesty
The things we don't want to speak
I'll try to get out but I never will
Traffic is perfectly still
Were only taking turns
Holding this world
It's how it's always been
When you're older you will understand"
I'm home for a month tomorrow. I hope I pass all my classes. I'm so nervous. I can't wait to spend time with my family and friends and not have to do homework. I hate Christmas, but I'm looking forward to New Year's!!! Dee and I call myself the baby Grinch. haha.
"You swear you recall nothing at all
That could make you come back down
You made up your mind to leave it all behind
Now you're forced to fight it out
You fall away from your past
But it's following you
You left something undone, it's now your rerun
It's the one you can't erase
You should have made it right, so you wouldn't have to fight
To put a smile back on your face
Something I've done that I can't outrun
Maybe you should wait maybe you should run
But there's something you've said that can't be undone"