*yawnnn....
*so today was a bit of an emotional roller coster for me i guess... got up kinda early cuz i couldn't sleep, so me and mom made apple cinnamon pancakes for breakfast then dad called and said that he would be here early to pick me up so i had to go get ready instead of finish makin 'em.... so i hurried up and got ready... then he called and said that he was gonna be late, so i stopped gettin ready, then he called *again* and said that he was just gonna come at the time we discussed originally... gah. but he picked me up around 11:30, went to his house so he could change, and then up the funeral home... got there and only like 5 people were there so it's needless to say that we were early. go figure. then becky got there and i had someone to talk to thankfully. got to see heather and jason again... sometimes i wish that i was closer with her... then everyone came in spurts.... a few here and there... about 20 total... kinda sad actually, its the smallest i've ever been to... and it's even sadder to know why... i hope that when it's my funeral, that i've had an impact on more people than that... and that i've lived a more satisfying life... and that i figure things out before the last three weeks. sorry to be a downer. not the intention for this entry for the most part.... but anywho... after all that, mom picked me up and we went up into town to get the last few things i needed for homecoming... ribbon for my hair, nail glue... little things... then i came home and ate, then went to ralph's house to hang out for a bit... got home about half an hour ago from there... and right now im really tired and hungry... i would like to go to sleep, but i dont think it'd be too successfull... my mind is running at about 1,000 miles per hour right now but my body feels like it has hit a brick wall. geh i hate feeling like this.... anyways. homecoming is in a week... at times im really excited about it, but at times im not... i dont know... i think it's funner to go to things like this with someone your interested in, but, im gonna have fun just goin with nick as friends anyways... i still have to sew my dress, fix my purse, and make my headband... i still have alot to get ready i guess... o well... hmmm... i think im gonna go now, i dont feel much like typing further. *good night.