I remember when

[brittannnnny]

I used to fell beautiful. I used to be loved. I used to have friends. I used to never stay home at nights. I remember when I always smiled. I remember when I didn't have this feeling in my heart like someone was stabbing me. I remember when I used to sing my heart out and not care who was around. I remember when I wasn't scared to travel the country by train. I remember when I acted as if nothing could hurt me.

It's funny how every time this feeling enters me it's always close to Christmas and I'm usually listening to Damien Rice.

Please God don't let what happened this year happen again.
I just simply couldn't bare that.