I have learned
that no matter what people say or do you can not relay on them to follow that.
When you were honestly in love with someone and that feeling doesn't go away with time, you're bound to have those feelings come up.
I am glad that I have over come that. I am happy that I can say "no" without a second thought. I am happy that I have grown up enough to have the courage to resist. I am happy that I am were I am supposed to be in life at this very moment. I am favored and treated the way I am supposed to be. I have surrounded myself with great people who will amount to great things, and I am proud to call them friends. I am glad that I finally realized how to use my voice in the right way. I am proud to be me, and I am happy with myself. Don't get me wrong I still have some self hatred for things and mistakes I have done...but you can't dwell on those things forever. I am completely happy overall and I am glad to be me.
I'm starting to read "Angels and Demons" tonight (Even though I promised Chris a week ago I would start it). I am turning 18 in 25 days and I cannot wait. I am breaking out of my shell and showing the real me to anyone and everyone that wants to know or see it. I like a boy that is by far the coolest friend, and the best boy to like. I carry myself with higher standards and think that God has the best in store for me. I am no longer having sex until I get married, and I'm not going to worry about making other people happy with me. I am happy with myself and that's all the matters.
Even if I don't know you, I love you. Even if I have told you that I hated you, I take that back... I love you. I am sorry if I have ever done you wrong, or hurt you in anyway. If I haven't apologized to you personally please take this as your apology. I am nothing special, and nothing better than you...I am me and I love it. I only hope that you can see.
When you were honestly in love with someone and that feeling doesn't go away with time, you're bound to have those feelings come up.
I am glad that I have over come that. I am happy that I can say "no" without a second thought. I am happy that I have grown up enough to have the courage to resist. I am happy that I am were I am supposed to be in life at this very moment. I am favored and treated the way I am supposed to be. I have surrounded myself with great people who will amount to great things, and I am proud to call them friends. I am glad that I finally realized how to use my voice in the right way. I am proud to be me, and I am happy with myself. Don't get me wrong I still have some self hatred for things and mistakes I have done...but you can't dwell on those things forever. I am completely happy overall and I am glad to be me.
I'm starting to read "Angels and Demons" tonight (Even though I promised Chris a week ago I would start it). I am turning 18 in 25 days and I cannot wait. I am breaking out of my shell and showing the real me to anyone and everyone that wants to know or see it. I like a boy that is by far the coolest friend, and the best boy to like. I carry myself with higher standards and think that God has the best in store for me. I am no longer having sex until I get married, and I'm not going to worry about making other people happy with me. I am happy with myself and that's all the matters.
Even if I don't know you, I love you. Even if I have told you that I hated you, I take that back... I love you. I am sorry if I have ever done you wrong, or hurt you in anyway. If I haven't apologized to you personally please take this as your apology. I am nothing special, and nothing better than you...I am me and I love it. I only hope that you can see.