close your eyes, it will all go away
i feel like i'm running... but not really getting anywhere.
which is stupid because i have so many amazing friends. but all i can think about is how badly i want to fall in love.
its sick - i feel like a 15 year old love-sick puppy.
and i've always been the huge advicate of "wait and it will come eventually"
but what happens when you're just sick and tired of waiting?
i have this show though - and its wonderful. i love the cast i'm working with and my director is awesome.
i wish i could just run away to hollywood and become some big star and say "fuck college". thats where i really want to be, not here.
and it breaks my heart to talk to my parents about this - because all they tell me is that my dreams are a "little unrealistic" - but honestly, whose dreams aren't unrealistic?
and why wouldn't i be able to make it? i mean - people are obviously making it in hollywood - we have movies, don't we? why couldn't i be one of those people?
one day i'm just gonna do it, even if it breaks my family's heart.
just not happy. i feel like there are so many other things out there for me - and i'm contenting myself with this. i don't want to just settle for something, that would be out of character for me.
bleh. life is so.... frustrating.
which is stupid because i have so many amazing friends. but all i can think about is how badly i want to fall in love.
its sick - i feel like a 15 year old love-sick puppy.
and i've always been the huge advicate of "wait and it will come eventually"
but what happens when you're just sick and tired of waiting?
i have this show though - and its wonderful. i love the cast i'm working with and my director is awesome.
i wish i could just run away to hollywood and become some big star and say "fuck college". thats where i really want to be, not here.
and it breaks my heart to talk to my parents about this - because all they tell me is that my dreams are a "little unrealistic" - but honestly, whose dreams aren't unrealistic?
and why wouldn't i be able to make it? i mean - people are obviously making it in hollywood - we have movies, don't we? why couldn't i be one of those people?
one day i'm just gonna do it, even if it breaks my family's heart.
just not happy. i feel like there are so many other things out there for me - and i'm contenting myself with this. i don't want to just settle for something, that would be out of character for me.
bleh. life is so.... frustrating.