Heartbreak Hit Me Today
I know i haven't updated in a while and i'm sorry. But i've been so busy that i hadn't had time. Well as most of my friends know i had liked Cody for about a 2 months and so on the 25 of October we started talking. It was going pretty great or so I thought. I was so happy that nothing could bring me down. Everything was ok for about 2 weeks. Then tuesday he started acting different. He had been sick and it was his first day back at school so i just figured that he was trying to adjust back to it. On wednesday he didn't even come so i had a pretty crappy day. Yesterday was the day that our drama class put on their play for the public and he was acting different then too, but he said that it was just nerves. So i was just like ok. Today me and him was talking about where he was going tonight and i was like have fun and just tell me if you do anything so i won't find out from anybody else. He was like ok, then he said if you're going to be this protective over me i don't think that this going to work out. He just walked off then and didn't even give me a chance to say anything. Then during 4th block one of my close friends told me something that she overheard him say at lunch. I hadn't cried but then when she told me that i just started bawling. Then she went over and talked to him and he said that he liked me and everything but that he wasn't over his EXgirlfriend. She said well why did you even get started with britta and then just leave her hanging. He said i didn't mean to but i couldn't help it. He also said that I lied to him. But then when i asked him about it he wouldn't event talk to me about it. So he told me that he didn't want to get hurt or that he didn't want to hurt me well he did he basically broke my heart. I should've known better than to think that he was over her, but i wasn't and i fell into his little game and my heart was played around with and now i am so depressed but i'm getting ready to go out and have a great time with my cousin and his friend. But i'm still going to be thinking about cody. No matter how much fun i have or who i'm going to be with i'm still going to think about why it had to be this way. TOMORROW WE PLAY HONAKER IN THE PLAYOFFS AND I'M SO EXCITED. I HOPE WE WIN. GO HAYSI!!!!! But i'm still sort of depressed. I gotta go my cousin is here so i'll keep you posted on how things work out.