* // Happiest day of my life *
Happy Birthday Christa Setser !!?
gurl, u know that i love you with all my heart?! you are my other sister * and that wont ever change ... hope ya had a a great birthday and i hope that ur baby is still alive lol* but anywho i ♥ you ;))
today has been the best day of my life!? it all started last night, when * he * called me.. we talked until like 3:00!? shew, if i had one wish , i would wish i could be with * him * again.. it was the sweetest thing last night.. I never thought i could ♥ sumone so much.. u know? and I also didn't know how much * he * meant to me, until he was finally gone.. i never believed that saying, but now i do .. and i wish it wasnt true.. the other day in Career Path, me and Court was talkin about guys.. and we both started crying.. i couldnt look at her, without bawling. and she couldnt look at me either (( i love ya Court )) .. me and her are in the same situation right now.. at least i have sumone... but our teacher was askin us, if the world would end in 2 days what would we do? well me and Court, stared crying again... and then she asked us what we would we take with us.. sumthing we cherished the most... well i would take * him * with me... and if i had only 2 days left.. i would try to spend the rest of my time with * him *.. hes the only one i ever think about..* he * is my whole life.. * he * won my heart.. and no one has ever done that.. i never thought these words was true.. but now i do.. i'm in ♥ with him.... i will never give up, i cant even move on to anyone else, casue i alwyas look at him and i just cry .. i cant stand to see him with his girlfriend, and i cant stand to look at him, casue all that goes trhough my head, is ( ( he's not mine anymore ) ) and then i cry again.. i wish he would give me one more chance, i would make everything be alright, and i wouldnt hurt him.. i dont htink i ever could... i just want to be in his arms, one last time, before i die.. so i can go on to Heaven knowing, that i had sumone.. but if not.. then i will go to heaven and wait for him.. and then maybe he will see me differntly.. and maybe he will think i am pretty like other gurls.. but u know what? my heart belongs to him, and that won ever change.. but my one wish is : to hug him and kiss him one last time.. and if nothing changes then i guess i will let it be.. but if not.. i would be the happiest gurl alive.. but if it dont happen, after my wish.. then i will hold my head high, knowing that , he is the man of my dreams...* but i think i am goin to go now.. hope no one gets mad over this .. and the one thing that gets me,. and really tears me up.. is that he said he loved me ......
I ♥ you *