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so after tennis today, i drove around... i drove for 15 mins that it takes me to get home, but then i passed my house and drove around for another 15 or something. just to drive. and to think and shit. i was reminded of something again, something i dont like to think about. it will pass... and come back... like it has been. it just sucks, to wake up in the middle of the night, after seeing that face in my sleep that i opened my eyes to before.. and then the same feeling i had before soon after. it was the worst feeling. ever.
be careful who you trust. you might think you know someone so well. and then you put all your trust in them, and all of a sudden they turn on you and take advantage of your trust. basically, some people suck.
some of the worst feelings are feeling helpless, and trapped, knowing that you dont want to be in the situation you are in, but also knowing you cant do anything about it. and feeling scared. and feeling dirty. and feeling terrible, to the point where you feel sick. i wish no one ever had to feel this way, but i know thats not possible. i hope none of you or someone you know has to.
basically, thats what i thought about in the car. but like i said, this mood will pass again.. so im done for now.
i felt good after tennis today. i feel more in shape. and im losing weight.. my pants dont fit anymore... time to go shopping..
anyway, i should probably do my chem lab. maybe.
one more day till a 3 day weekend...
be careful who you trust. you might think you know someone so well. and then you put all your trust in them, and all of a sudden they turn on you and take advantage of your trust. basically, some people suck.
some of the worst feelings are feeling helpless, and trapped, knowing that you dont want to be in the situation you are in, but also knowing you cant do anything about it. and feeling scared. and feeling dirty. and feeling terrible, to the point where you feel sick. i wish no one ever had to feel this way, but i know thats not possible. i hope none of you or someone you know has to.
basically, thats what i thought about in the car. but like i said, this mood will pass again.. so im done for now.
i felt good after tennis today. i feel more in shape. and im losing weight.. my pants dont fit anymore... time to go shopping..
anyway, i should probably do my chem lab. maybe.
one more day till a 3 day weekend...