* .. I wish my life could be better ..*
I really don't know what to put in this update but I can say that Im not happy at the moment. There has been a lot of stuff goin on in my life here lately and I just wish that you could feel what Im feeling right now. What Im tryin to say is that I can't really rely on anyone, trust, or count on anyone because there is no one there to really listen to me. Ok let me just tell you that Im dating Bj Mullins and I wish that he would just grow up and tell me how he feels because he's pissin me off with all these lil games he been playin. Last weekend we were suppose to get together but we didn't and well we haven't talked to each other in like a week and that really kills me. Don't get me wrong I really really love this boy and I just wish it could work.
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Another thing thats been bothering me is that my friends act so weird these days. You can't talk to them without them talking about theirselves or other ppl. I just wish that I could get my word out every once in a while .. ewww* And friends that talk bout you or just don't seem like they like you is another thing that bothers me.... well I know your probably tired of me complaining but there have been times that I just want to break down and cry and even wish I weren't born. THAT is how depressed I have been and stressed out.* Well I really have thought about it and I think I just might go and move in with my mom.. I know you say well she's said that before but I really want to and Im thinking really hard about it. I know that it will give you all time away from me and maybe when I come back you all will be changed and be ppl worth talkin to.* To the ones that don't know what Im talkin about.. you better be glad you don't know* I love all of you all very much and I want you to know that but just live your life and don't be controlled by someone that you don't even need.
Sheww.. okay anyways.. time for the randoms.*
+ Last night me and Tab and Carolyn got together and chilled +
+ Today I went and put in an application at McDonald's +
+ Tonight I'll prolly try to talk to Bj and see what's goin on with us +
+ Tonight Imma sit up all night and watch movies and eat popcorn...and maybe cry a lil bit :'(
+ My mom is commin in next week +
+ I think that Im losing some ppl in my relation with friends +
+ I love Bj A LOT and I wish he knew how I felt +
+ I think that's it but please leave me a comment and I'll leave one on yours.*
love ya youngins +
B. r. i. t. t.*