bleh
Well I'm back at school now...I'm kinda upset that the week went by so fast.There's only so many things you can do I guess. I can honestly say I made the best of it.I went and saw the ring 2 with Laura and Maddy...kinda disapointed..I think it was meant to go deeper and explain some things, but it really didn't. It never answered the question: why? Eh. Sequels blow anyway.
Played silent hill 3 with matt last night.Those games get weirder and weirder.And the monsters suck.Theres this zebra pig thing with three mouths.It's a pain in the ass.I wanted to do something to make me happy tired so I could sleep better.It kinda worked.Haha, I'm surprised that game didn't give me some demented dreams.I don't know what my deal is. I'm so tired all the time and I know why, that's not the problem, but you would think that as tired as I am I would sleep with no problem.But no. I get about 3-4 hours and wake up several times.And its not always nightmares either.I don't know.I still manage to get up at 6 to go work out and I can pretty much make it through the day.Just used to having to deal with it I guess.
I finally decided to go to mil ball.And yes, I'm going solo unless there are any last minute takers.I really can't stand most of the guy cadets.So I'm going, but not with any of them.
I really don't think my life is ever going to be organized and normal.No matter how much I try to catch up, theres just more shit I have to deal with.I have to make some decisions, and people are really trying to push me and its pissing me off.I'm going to do what I want and whats good for me, and thats all there is to it
There is one question I want answered.I'm not sure if this person is doing this intentionally or if she's just completely naive.But you would think that somone who's supposed to be your best friend would respect you and what you stand for and what you do, they may not agree with it, but they would respect it enough not to insult you or say things that she knows would offend you.I could speak up but I just walk away.It's not worth the fight.As long as its not directed right at me, I'm not going to say anything.I never fight unless it involves me directly.I want to think that she just doesnt realize it. But the thing is...she knows it bothers me more than anything, cause we've talked about it and she respects what I do.But if she respects it so much, then why the hell does she keep bringing this shit up whenever I'm around? I'm afraid I might not be able to be around them anymore if they keep it up.It really kinda pisses me off.Good thing I'm easygoing.
Played silent hill 3 with matt last night.Those games get weirder and weirder.And the monsters suck.Theres this zebra pig thing with three mouths.It's a pain in the ass.I wanted to do something to make me happy tired so I could sleep better.It kinda worked.Haha, I'm surprised that game didn't give me some demented dreams.I don't know what my deal is. I'm so tired all the time and I know why, that's not the problem, but you would think that as tired as I am I would sleep with no problem.But no. I get about 3-4 hours and wake up several times.And its not always nightmares either.I don't know.I still manage to get up at 6 to go work out and I can pretty much make it through the day.Just used to having to deal with it I guess.
I finally decided to go to mil ball.And yes, I'm going solo unless there are any last minute takers.I really can't stand most of the guy cadets.So I'm going, but not with any of them.
I really don't think my life is ever going to be organized and normal.No matter how much I try to catch up, theres just more shit I have to deal with.I have to make some decisions, and people are really trying to push me and its pissing me off.I'm going to do what I want and whats good for me, and thats all there is to it
There is one question I want answered.I'm not sure if this person is doing this intentionally or if she's just completely naive.But you would think that somone who's supposed to be your best friend would respect you and what you stand for and what you do, they may not agree with it, but they would respect it enough not to insult you or say things that she knows would offend you.I could speak up but I just walk away.It's not worth the fight.As long as its not directed right at me, I'm not going to say anything.I never fight unless it involves me directly.I want to think that she just doesnt realize it. But the thing is...she knows it bothers me more than anything, cause we've talked about it and she respects what I do.But if she respects it so much, then why the hell does she keep bringing this shit up whenever I'm around? I'm afraid I might not be able to be around them anymore if they keep it up.It really kinda pisses me off.Good thing I'm easygoing.