All I wanted.
You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right
All I wanted to was to say hi. All I wanted was to just catch up for a bit, see how things were going, like old friends do. Nothing more, as simple as that.
But you twisted it. Turned it into something that was never going to happen.
I didn't realize you still had feelings I never had. I didn't realize you thought I ever had THOSE kind of feelings. I didn't. I never wanted that. But what I told you late that night is still true. Those feelings were not cloudy, muddy or dirty. You are the one that was scared. I have always been honest, you just don't want to believe.
All I wanted was friendship.
I felt like I was reliving the day I realized the abbey was not what I had always thought it was. I was crushed that day. I still hold on to those pure childhood memories before I found out. Those make me smile. It was such a wonderful time for me.
You are now on the same ship with so many others. I'll give you the helm of that ship. At least you were far kinder to me than the others. You also meant a great deal more to me.
I cried, but not out of sadness. I can't really say what the feeling was. I guess it was just knowing you didn't want to be my friend anymore. I wish you would have simply told me in a more direct way. It's ok though. I don't blame you, it's not easy telling someone that.
I can look back and say it was the best friendship I ever had. Even the gaps, it was still the best friendship I ever had. I have that. It's over now, but the journey was worth it.
And soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right
All I wanted to was to say hi. All I wanted was to just catch up for a bit, see how things were going, like old friends do. Nothing more, as simple as that.
But you twisted it. Turned it into something that was never going to happen.
I didn't realize you still had feelings I never had. I didn't realize you thought I ever had THOSE kind of feelings. I didn't. I never wanted that. But what I told you late that night is still true. Those feelings were not cloudy, muddy or dirty. You are the one that was scared. I have always been honest, you just don't want to believe.
All I wanted was friendship.
I felt like I was reliving the day I realized the abbey was not what I had always thought it was. I was crushed that day. I still hold on to those pure childhood memories before I found out. Those make me smile. It was such a wonderful time for me.
You are now on the same ship with so many others. I'll give you the helm of that ship. At least you were far kinder to me than the others. You also meant a great deal more to me.
I cried, but not out of sadness. I can't really say what the feeling was. I guess it was just knowing you didn't want to be my friend anymore. I wish you would have simply told me in a more direct way. It's ok though. I don't blame you, it's not easy telling someone that.
I can look back and say it was the best friendship I ever had. Even the gaps, it was still the best friendship I ever had. I have that. It's over now, but the journey was worth it.