its not fair...
im sorry that on lj u have to read about my pathetic life. im so sorry. im so sorry to the people ive hurt by bitter bc im bitter about jordan. i cant help it that i like him. i cant help it. and for some reason i leave myself wide open to getting hurt. like today he asked me to go to a movie and then asked me to come over and hang out with his family. and i was like yah of course i wanna see ur family again and blah blah blah so he says he will be over at 830. so i get all dressed up and 830 comes by and no jordan so i call. no answer. so i wait its 915 no jordan. i call again and he picks up and then hangs up on me. so i stop calling him. i dont know why he does this to me. i dont know wut im doing wrong. but i wish i knew. i wish i knew bc im so sick of gettin hurt. im so sick of liking him and not feeling that he feels the same. it just really upsets me that ive been up since 6am and i didnt get to bed til 2am bc ppl kept callin me wit problems. and it upsets me bc ive been shopping alllll day i havent been home much and i am exhausted but i still wanted to see jordan so like i said i got home i had 20 mins to get ready and i got cute..and for wut? for him to stand me up for the 4th time this wk. i just dont get him. he doesnt care about me otherwise he wouldnt do this to me. why.why.why.why.why. and it just sucks that right now i need him the most after wut happened a cpl of days ago. and to top it off.. my 2 best friends are gone...i have no one to talk to about this except this stupid lj. ive never felt so lonely. i just wish i knew wut was goin on.......