Angry Music that i LOVE!!
I am good. I am in my bubble- thoughts going through fluidly.... i am peaceful with letting it all go now.
I can smile because i am gonna try. I am going to get things done. I am going to love without bounds for once. Be honest with myself.
I am excited that chris has found this girl. i just hope that she gives chris what she deserves. not that i did. but i hope this one isn't playing. or else i will feel the need to hurt her. 'cause i did hurt myself for hurting her. but i never expressed that to her. she would kick my ass for that. so yeah.... i hope for the best.
I want emily to find someone. i want her to be in love with someone other than lauren and marissa. and i want her to stick with them regardless of lauren and marissa. to let go and to learn to love a new type.
Everything is on shuffle- there is no order- appreciate the randomness. Know that i can deal- know that i am strong enough. Throw at me what you want. Because i can get through it- i know what i want. I know if she came back- i could say no. After this weekend i know that. And it amazing for me- to look back with no regrets. To look forward at the possibilities, aware, and not bitter. I don't need extraneous variables anymore. LIFE is unpredictable as is- i have tasted my bittersweet freedom!
Coffee is good- cereal is good. mmmmm.....sleepiness still. a drifting pensiveness mixed with cold air. and knowledge. *sigh* why can't contentment last? why does it always dissolve with the pressures. how can i hold onto it? stay with me.
I can smile because i am gonna try. I am going to get things done. I am going to love without bounds for once. Be honest with myself.
I am excited that chris has found this girl. i just hope that she gives chris what she deserves. not that i did. but i hope this one isn't playing. or else i will feel the need to hurt her. 'cause i did hurt myself for hurting her. but i never expressed that to her. she would kick my ass for that. so yeah.... i hope for the best.
I want emily to find someone. i want her to be in love with someone other than lauren and marissa. and i want her to stick with them regardless of lauren and marissa. to let go and to learn to love a new type.
Everything is on shuffle- there is no order- appreciate the randomness. Know that i can deal- know that i am strong enough. Throw at me what you want. Because i can get through it- i know what i want. I know if she came back- i could say no. After this weekend i know that. And it amazing for me- to look back with no regrets. To look forward at the possibilities, aware, and not bitter. I don't need extraneous variables anymore. LIFE is unpredictable as is- i have tasted my bittersweet freedom!
Coffee is good- cereal is good. mmmmm.....sleepiness still. a drifting pensiveness mixed with cold air. and knowledge. *sigh* why can't contentment last? why does it always dissolve with the pressures. how can i hold onto it? stay with me.