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i dont know what to do with myself. i guess i will just go to sleep. i keep waiting for something exciting to happen, but i know whatever it is i will be dissapointed becuase its not what i want right now. i know i am being stupid and i am looking into this way too much but i know how this will end up... like every other time. i am an idiot and i know it but im not ready to stop doing this to myself yet. i have too much hope, even though my brain is screaming at me to take it easy.
i am just venting.
i am just venting.