I had a crazy theroy...
I had this weird idea.
You know how God made us for Himself? Completely to worship + love Him always?
What if He made us specifically for other specific people as well? The whole concept of this crazy thought is, everything about a person, their personality/semantic beliefs/idiosyncracies were made for other specific people. Certain people were made to challenge specific people, encourage specific people, assist specific people, amuse specific people and so forth.
So instead of being made just for God, you were made for x other people as well, specifically for them, and other people were made specifically for you.
I don't believe it's outside the realm of possibility. A God who can count every hair on a person's head can coordinate personalities perfectly as well. I just don't know if it's true.
I think I'm also struggling with forgiveness. My friend completely ditched and blew off small group sleepover last night - that she got a letter about - that I reminded her about wednesday - that she said she was excited for - to go rock climbing and hang out with school compadres. So I was ticked to the extreme last night/this morning. When I got home I checked my e-mail and got this message from her:
"okay, let me start by saying that i am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry that i didnt come to the sleepover. i totally spaced the whole thing out and i forgot about until 9 when i called my house and my dad reminded me. by that time it was too late for me to get a ride there and i ended up feeling really crummy that i didnt go. i am so sorry that this happened and i am definetly going to make an extra effort to remember to babysit and make a better and more lasting commitment to BUC and you. i really am sorry brittaini, i love you so much and i wish i could have been there. i hope you understand."
And yes, I should have replied and said, "I forgive you." Yes I should be okay with everything now. But a huge large gargantuan part of me wants to chew her out tomorrow. Or "forget" to give her a ride to BUC. Or both.
"If you don't forgive those that sin against you, don't expect God to forgive you either."
*sigh*
I'm not liking this whole being wrong thing.
And I'll leave you with that thought, because my song is playing, and I have to go finish obscene amounts of math homework so that my mom and I can do something after church tomorrow, because apparently she was counting on it, even though she didn't inform me in any way or shape until 10 minutes ago.
You know how God made us for Himself? Completely to worship + love Him always?
What if He made us specifically for other specific people as well? The whole concept of this crazy thought is, everything about a person, their personality/semantic beliefs/idiosyncracies were made for other specific people. Certain people were made to challenge specific people, encourage specific people, assist specific people, amuse specific people and so forth.
So instead of being made just for God, you were made for x other people as well, specifically for them, and other people were made specifically for you.
I don't believe it's outside the realm of possibility. A God who can count every hair on a person's head can coordinate personalities perfectly as well. I just don't know if it's true.
I think I'm also struggling with forgiveness. My friend completely ditched and blew off small group sleepover last night - that she got a letter about - that I reminded her about wednesday - that she said she was excited for - to go rock climbing and hang out with school compadres. So I was ticked to the extreme last night/this morning. When I got home I checked my e-mail and got this message from her:
"okay, let me start by saying that i am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry that i didnt come to the sleepover. i totally spaced the whole thing out and i forgot about until 9 when i called my house and my dad reminded me. by that time it was too late for me to get a ride there and i ended up feeling really crummy that i didnt go. i am so sorry that this happened and i am definetly going to make an extra effort to remember to babysit and make a better and more lasting commitment to BUC and you. i really am sorry brittaini, i love you so much and i wish i could have been there. i hope you understand."
And yes, I should have replied and said, "I forgive you." Yes I should be okay with everything now. But a huge large gargantuan part of me wants to chew her out tomorrow. Or "forget" to give her a ride to BUC. Or both.
"If you don't forgive those that sin against you, don't expect God to forgive you either."
*sigh*
I'm not liking this whole being wrong thing.
And I'll leave you with that thought, because my song is playing, and I have to go finish obscene amounts of math homework so that my mom and I can do something after church tomorrow, because apparently she was counting on it, even though she didn't inform me in any way or shape until 10 minutes ago.