Nothing happens in contradiction to nature, only in contradiction to what we know of it.
There's Many Tales I've Lived to Tell [EP]. A Special Agent Dana Scully, MD fanmix/picspam. 9 seasons. 2 films. 6 songs. 1 woman. 1 journey.
Show: The X-Files
A/N: This is my musical dedication to my favorite TV character ever, one Special Agent Dana Scully, MD. A rational scientist who chose the FBI over practicing medicine, she is a mass of contradictions. Skeptical believer, passionately by-the-book, loving yet lonely, empathetic yet helplessly stoic. The tragedies she faces along her path are truly a thing to be witnessed, from the destruction of her health to the losses of people she loves. And all the while, the things she holds dear are constantly challenged; her convictions in a scientific universe, her fragile faith in an almighty. But yet, she keeps with the journey in an unending love for her partner, Fox Mulder, proving that Scully, ultimately, just needs to believe that life has meaning, that her actions are not wasted, that her faith in the idea of happiness will one day, be rewarded.
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She was a marshall of cold facts, quick to organize, connect, shuffle, reorder and synthesize their relative hard values into discreet categories. Imprecision would only invite sexist criticism that she was soft, malleable not up to her male counterparts...To be thought of as simply a beautiful woman was bridling, unthinkable. But she was beautiful... fatally, stunningly prepossessing. Yet the compensatory respect she commanded only deepened the yearnings of her heart...to let it open, to let someone in.
-6x18, Milagro.
Scully: Why would I accept defeat? Why would I accept it, if you won't? Mulder, you say that you've failed but you only fail if you give up. And I know you -- you can't give up. It's what I saw in you when we first met. It's what made me follow you ... why I'd do it all over again.
-9x20, The Truth II
1. Dream - Priscilla Ahn {♫}
long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, i asked god who i'm supposed to be.
the stars smiled down on me, god answered in silent reverie. i said a prayer and fell asleep.
i had a dream
that i could fly from the highest tree.
i had a dream.
Now i'm old and feeling grey. i don't know what's left to say about this life i'm willing to leave.
i lived it full and i lived it well, there's many tales i've lived to tell. i'm ready now, i'm ready now, i'm ready now to fly from the highest wing.
Mrs. Scully: Dana? Dr. Zuckerman called. He ah... he said that you wanted to see me? (She sits on Scully's bed and they hug. Scully is crying)
Scully: I'm so sorry... I fight and I fight and I fight... But I'm so stupid.
Mrs. Scully: What? What is it?
Scully: I've come so far in my life on simple faith, and now when I need it the most I just push it away. I mean, why ... why do I wear this? (Scully holds up the cross necklace) Why do I wear this, Mom? I put something that I don't even know or understand under the skin of my neck. I will subject myself to these crazy treatments, and I keep telling myself that I'm doing everything I can, but it's a lie!
Mrs. Scully: You have not lost your faith, Dana.
Scully: But I have. In a way. And when you asked Father McCue to dinner to administer to my faith... I just closed off to him.
Mrs. Scully: What's important now is that you save your energy.
Scully: I'm not getting better, Mom.
Mrs. Scully: You don't know that...
Scully: Yeah. The PET scan shows no improvement. (They hug again and both cry)
Mrs. Scully: I know you're afraid...I know you're afraid to tell me...but you have to tell someone.
-5x03, Redux II
2. Flowers for a Ghost - Thriving Ivory {♫}
who will bring me flowers when it's over
and who will give me comfort when it’s cold
who will i belong to when the day just won't give in
and who will tell me how it ends and how it all begins
don't ever say goodbye
i'm only human
i'm only human
i'm only human
Mulder: Do what you want. Don’t go to Philadelphia, But let me remind you that I worked my ass off to get the files reopened. You were just assigned. This work is my life.
Scully: And it's become mine.
Mulder: You don't want it to be?
Scully: This isn’t about you. Or maybe it is, indirectly. I don’t know. I feel like I’ve lost sight of myself, Mulder. It’s hard to see, let alone find in the darkness of covert locations. I mean, I wish I could say that we were going in circles, but we’re not. We’re going in an endless line - - two steps forwards and three steps back. While my own life is...standing still.
-4x13, Never Again
3. Usual to Me - Turn Off The Stars {♫}
life feels so usual to me
life feels so usual to me
but how am i the only one sinking like the sun?
could i find myself in times of better days?
am i the only one sinking like the sun?
could i find someone?
useless in the afternoon
this has been going on for far too long
i don't want to feel this way
i think it's time that i should carry on
Scully: You know, most people want to live forever.
Fellig: Most people are idiots. Which is one of the reasons I don't.
Scully: I think you're wrong. How can you have too much life? There's too much to learn, to experience.
Fellig: 75 years... is enough. Take my word for it. You live forever, sooner or later you start to think about the big thing you're missing and that everybody else gets to find out about but you.
Scully: What about love?
-6x09, Tithonus
4. Without Reason - The Fray {♫}
i do it on a whim, its rhyme without reason whatever comes to mind i'll pull it from thin air.
i've learned to improvise to fill my time i don't want to live this life, no i don't want to live this life without reason.
never want to live without it,
never want to live,
i don't want to live without reason.
Scully: I was considering Boggs. If he knew that I was your partner, he could have found out everything he knew about me. About my father...
Mulder: Scully...
Scully: "Beyond the Sea" was playing at my parents’ wedding. Visions of deceased loved ones are a common psychological phenomena. If he knew that my father had...
Mulder: Dana. After all you’ve seen, after all the evidence, why can’t you believe?
Scully: I'm afraid. I'm afraid to believe.
-1x12, Beyond the Sea
5. Relative's Eyes - The Most Serene Republic {♫}
what does the brain compare to the heart?
it's a good day to find a surprise
but lucky enough everyday i find one in your personal space
bishop keep to the sky, keep to the sky
Padgett: See? You are curious about me.
Scully: Well, you lead a curious life.
Padgett: Not much different from yours I imagine-- lonely.
Scully: Loneliness is a choice.
-6x18, Milagro
6. Scully's Theme - Mark Snow {♫}
Instrumental.
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Time passes in moments ... moments which, rushing past define the path of a life just as surely as they lead towards its end. How rarely do we stop to examine that path, to see the reasons why all things happen, to consider whether the path we take in life is our own making or simply one into which we drift with eyes closed. But what if we could stop, pause to take stock of each precious moment before it passes? Might we then see the endless forks in the road that have shaped a life? And, seeing those choices, choose another path?
-Scully; 7x17, all things.