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so anyways....i start off my journal like that all the time...i had a nervous breakdown the other day and i pretty much explained it to derby because i was sitting in my car for an hour listening to the same sad song over and over...i explained to him everything... and i mean pretty much everything..,if none of you know by now i have a really bad past..and i figured out i pretty much have a metaphorical mask...i think thats how you spell it..anyways, i realized that i'm never myself anymore. I am not who i used to be, i'm not the nice, kind, caring, sensitive Kal anymore and i don't know how i am not myself anymore. I don't think i'm really going to find out. Really...i just don't know