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Todays culture is so twisted.
I came to this conclusion as I sat on the couch in a house unfamiliar to my own, keeping a watchful eye on someone elses children.
Todays society consists of two main focuses- ego and media.
The ego comes in to play with money and fame and general 'wants'. Most people work because they want money. they want money so they can buy things, and they want to buy things because apparently 'the more you own, the better you are.' They forget about family because they are too focused on themselves, and they spend so much time working for things, they lose the people they are working for. not themselves, the people they want to be.
I, the 'helpless' yet extremely guilty teenaged girl was using this to my advantage this evening.
First, Tim and Carol went out to spend money and feel better about themselves. They most likely (whether they want to admit it or not) went out to be seen, observed, to show off. Their house reflects this immensely as every piece of furnature has been carefully selected, and their children are quietly shunned to another area of the house so they dont disrupt the 'look.'
As they were out having fun and spending more money, they left thier kids behind. The ones they should be loving. They left them behind in the hands of me, a stranger who could give them no real love. I watched out for their safety, and they gave their childish affection of holding my hand when they got scared watching alice in wonderland, and curling up on my lap when they were tired. They shared that with me, but I could give nothing back.
it seems as we get older, we lose the ability to express emotions. If you ever get the chance, watch little kids interact. They have the ability to walk up to a complete stranger and give them a hug. They can do this because they are unaware of stereotypes, cultures and pressures around them. They are just being themselves and dont care about what is considered 'socially acceptable.' they are open because they dont care about their own self-image. how i wish i could be like this.
I could not return their childish love, so i feigned it. I tucked them into bed, but they had no good-night kiss. Isaac said 'i love you miss katie' as i left, and all i could say was 'good night isaac.' to a child.
and then i left him in the dark.
I came to this conclusion as I sat on the couch in a house unfamiliar to my own, keeping a watchful eye on someone elses children.
Todays society consists of two main focuses- ego and media.
The ego comes in to play with money and fame and general 'wants'. Most people work because they want money. they want money so they can buy things, and they want to buy things because apparently 'the more you own, the better you are.' They forget about family because they are too focused on themselves, and they spend so much time working for things, they lose the people they are working for. not themselves, the people they want to be.
I, the 'helpless' yet extremely guilty teenaged girl was using this to my advantage this evening.
First, Tim and Carol went out to spend money and feel better about themselves. They most likely (whether they want to admit it or not) went out to be seen, observed, to show off. Their house reflects this immensely as every piece of furnature has been carefully selected, and their children are quietly shunned to another area of the house so they dont disrupt the 'look.'
As they were out having fun and spending more money, they left thier kids behind. The ones they should be loving. They left them behind in the hands of me, a stranger who could give them no real love. I watched out for their safety, and they gave their childish affection of holding my hand when they got scared watching alice in wonderland, and curling up on my lap when they were tired. They shared that with me, but I could give nothing back.
it seems as we get older, we lose the ability to express emotions. If you ever get the chance, watch little kids interact. They have the ability to walk up to a complete stranger and give them a hug. They can do this because they are unaware of stereotypes, cultures and pressures around them. They are just being themselves and dont care about what is considered 'socially acceptable.' they are open because they dont care about their own self-image. how i wish i could be like this.
I could not return their childish love, so i feigned it. I tucked them into bed, but they had no good-night kiss. Isaac said 'i love you miss katie' as i left, and all i could say was 'good night isaac.' to a child.
and then i left him in the dark.