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so life sucks. i'm stuck in this neverending depression of missing chuck while he moves on with his life...he has all kinds of opportunities to date other people..he hasn't yet but i'm sure he will soon....i made him promise to tell me when he decides to start dating someone new...i don't know why..i just have to know...
he told me the other day that he is moving to boston. i'm so sad. why can't i get him out of my heart? i know that i have to move on now...but i'm stuck with this drowning feeling...i need to get away from this place. i believe that i will be moving back to tulsa soon....but that's a big change...but maybe that's what i need...i have at least this semester to finish up here..and then maybe i can move back....i don't know how to be without him...it's so hard to live like this and then watch him live his life like none of it really mattered at all.....but i guess that's the way it will always be for me....
time for a life without chuck. hope i make it through alive.
-m
he told me the other day that he is moving to boston. i'm so sad. why can't i get him out of my heart? i know that i have to move on now...but i'm stuck with this drowning feeling...i need to get away from this place. i believe that i will be moving back to tulsa soon....but that's a big change...but maybe that's what i need...i have at least this semester to finish up here..and then maybe i can move back....i don't know how to be without him...it's so hard to live like this and then watch him live his life like none of it really mattered at all.....but i guess that's the way it will always be for me....
time for a life without chuck. hope i make it through alive.
-m