preparing tea for one...
This is going to be a very emo inspired entry. Sorry to be a downer but I must vent. Or I'll explode or cry or hurt something. All not good things.
I should be studying for a psychology test, but I just can't.
I am so pathetic. A complete failure at life. I'm getting two "D"s in trig and psych. Which means my parents aren't sending me to college. FUN STUFF! I guess I could work for a year. Or get out of this town for a year. But I'm so scared that when I come back everything is going to be different, or everyone is going to grow up without me. I can feel everything changing anyway.
I hate change.
Almost as much as I hate d00ds.
I'm attracting all the wrong ones. And then I fall quasi-in love with them for the night because I can fall in love with anyone for a moment. But I know its just because I'm lonely. The last "he" (who will never be my "he" on here again) turned out to be a dee too. He had me so fooled. I thought he was so different. He had everyone fooled. Ahhhh I'm such a tragic little character... even if I manage to smile through it all.
Sorry to be so melodramatic.
I want to run away... some where cool and crisp and rejuvenating. I need a rebirth or reincarnation. I'm so tired of being trapped in myself. I wish I could just get away from everything. I'm so tired of looking at these scars. WOW I'M A LAME EMO KID.
SOMEONE KICK ME HARD PLEASE.
to my lady: It will all work out. You're too wonderful to settle. If hes not right, you are so able to find someone who is, because you can get anyone you want.
I should be studying for a psychology test, but I just can't.
I am so pathetic. A complete failure at life. I'm getting two "D"s in trig and psych. Which means my parents aren't sending me to college. FUN STUFF! I guess I could work for a year. Or get out of this town for a year. But I'm so scared that when I come back everything is going to be different, or everyone is going to grow up without me. I can feel everything changing anyway.
I hate change.
Almost as much as I hate d00ds.
I'm attracting all the wrong ones. And then I fall quasi-in love with them for the night because I can fall in love with anyone for a moment. But I know its just because I'm lonely. The last "he" (who will never be my "he" on here again) turned out to be a dee too. He had me so fooled. I thought he was so different. He had everyone fooled. Ahhhh I'm such a tragic little character... even if I manage to smile through it all.
Sorry to be so melodramatic.
I want to run away... some where cool and crisp and rejuvenating. I need a rebirth or reincarnation. I'm so tired of being trapped in myself. I wish I could just get away from everything. I'm so tired of looking at these scars. WOW I'M A LAME EMO KID.
SOMEONE KICK ME HARD PLEASE.
to my lady: It will all work out. You're too wonderful to settle. If hes not right, you are so able to find someone who is, because you can get anyone you want.